Painful pasts and terrible truths

Chapter 65

Virgil was fixing something in the hangar, I felt a bit sad for some reason, Luna pushed my hand around with her snout, signalling that she wanted to be stroked and petted.

"What am I going to do, I'm just getting worse, I'm never going to make it to 20, am I" I sighed and kissed Luna on the top of her head, she licked my face in return.

She jumped on to my lap, she's a very large dog to sit on someone's lap, I pressed my face against her soft fur, I wanted to cry.

"Are you alright" Alan wondered, looking up from his comic book.

"Yeah I'm just lonely and bored" I replied quietly.

"Go and see him, trust me you need a good hug" Alan advised me.

"Ok" I muttered and I took Luna with me to the hangar, Virgil was cleaning his hands, he was covered in dirt and grease and to be honest he looked very hot, he had just dismissed Scott, I'm guessing Scott had to help him a bit, aww, he still needs help from his older brother.

"Thanks, I'll try and remember that next time" Virgil laughed to himself as he placed the dirty rag he was cleaning his hands with down, he hasn't noticed that I'm there yet, I cleared my throat and he jumped.

"Hey honey, how are you getting on" I asked him, my voice was shaking, I'm gonna burst into tears.

"I'm doing fine, just let me finish and then you can cuddle me and tickle me all you want" Virgil snapped.

"I'm sorry" I apologised "I didn't mean to disturb you" I started walking away but then I stopped "actually, Virgil can you come here for a second" I instructed him, he was really close to me oh what the heck, I hugged him and I burst into tears.

"Hey, it's alright, I'm sorry I snapped at you gorgeous, you don't deserve a sh*tty boyfriend like me" what he said only made me cry harder.

"I'm sorry" I sobbed.

"No baby don't cry, it's going to be ok, I didn't mean to snap at you, I've been really stressed out due to actually taking my exam" why is he kind to me.

Maybe I should mention how suicidal I've been feeling lately.

"I don't want to live anymore" I whispered.

"No don't say that, you're doing so well baby, please don't kill yourself, there's so much I want to do with you" Virgil whispered back and he kissed my damp cheek.

I kept silent, I let go of him, I walked slowly back to my room, I read some more and I waited until it was time to go to bed, Luna curled herself up on my bed, if Seoul was real I bet they'd be best friends to be honest, I had an awful nightmare, I had to do something about it, I needed to borrow Virgil's sleeping pills, I opened the door to his room, he looked up from something he was annotating.

"C-can I u-use your sleeping pills" I sniffed.

"No you can't, you're gonna get your goofy adorable little butt in here and you're gonna cuddle with me until you feel less scared" Virgil grinned.

"No" I whined.

"That's an order, I'm your superior and you will cuddle with me" Virgil frowned.

"Stop using your power over me to take advantage of me" I snapped and turned away.

"Fine, well you can't use my sleeping pills then, goodnight" Virgil sighed and he turned the light off "shut my door once you're done looking sad."

I turned the light back on, I knew he was joking because he was wearing that mischievous face that always means he's joking.

"Don't you dare play games with me mister" I laughed and I climbed into bed with him.