Painful pasts and terrible truths

Chapter 37

I was taken back to Tracy island as my verdict was not guilty, I had another nightmare again, I decided to stay in my own bed this time to deal with it on my own, it was truly awful really, tears were starting to roll down my cheeks, I got up in the end and I went to Virgil's room, he wasn't in his bed, I heard noises from the bathroom and I had to scarper

"Olivia I know you're awake, I'm not dumb" Virgil sighed and he rolled his eyes

"I'm gonna go back to bed" I whispered

"Oh no you don't, you're up for a reason and I want to find out what that reason is" Virgil grinned and he picked me up, he makes it look so effortless and it really hurts me that does

"Put me down" I growled

"Not until you tell me what's wrong" I don't want to tell him anything

"I'm not going to say anything" I huffed

"Ok then, if you're going to be that way then I won't bother pestering you, come on try and sleep it off on your own this time, I want you to be able to be independent if I'm not here" he looked sad

I wandered back to my room and I sat there on my bed, I went to lie down but I just couldn't sleep, I started crying again, I just couldn't do this, it was around one thirty when I heard my door open, I pretended to be asleep but my stifled sobs didn't help, I just wanted a hug, that's all I ask of him, just one hug will make me feel a little better

"Hey, are you awake still" Virgil asked quietly

"I just want a hug" I wailed

"Hey, hey, hey, it's alright, if you want a hug, a hug is what you'll receive" why is he so endearing, I flinched when he wrapped his arms around me, I'm still not used to him, I just want him to stay

"Virgil please stay, I don't want you to leave" I whispered

"I'll stay, I promise" I hate him for being adorable, I cuddled up to him and we both fell asleep, it was blissful and nice, I woke up again at five, Virgil was gone, I jumped when my door opened, I ran up to him and I hugged him

"I'm sorry I'm being really clingy" I apologised

"Nah it's cool, I love hugging you, plus hugging people releases good hormones in your brain which makes you happy and makes you live longer" why cant he contain his adorableness

I let go of him and I sat down again, he got his clothes from his room and he started putting them on, for a while he just sat there with just his jeans and his belt on, I had to look away, I felt embarrassed about looking at him, I wanted to go to sleep as I'm still wiped out from my illness

"I'm going to try and sleep again" I yawned and I nuzzled my pillow

"Ok, I'll wake you up for lunch then" Virgil smiled sweetly and he kissed me, he then ruffled my hair, why does he treat me like a kid I'm two years younger than him

I was just lying there and I drifted slowly off to sleep, I was awoken by crying, I got up instantly, I knew who it was, I opened the door to Virgil's room

"Honey what's wrong" I asked

"I can't control it, I can't control my anger, my antidepressants aren't working" Virgil cried, he was shaking so much, tears were streaming down his face, he was sitting in the corner of his room, I walked over to him, I lowered myself to his level, I allowed him to rest his head on my lap

"I'm useless with this sort of stuff, but it's ok, I'm here, you don't need to be mad or upset anymore, I love you ok" I whispered into his hair, I was scared for him

"I'm scared" Virgil sobbed

"Shh, I told you, it's ok, I wish I could make you feel better" I reassured him, I kissed his unsurprisingly wet cheek

"I just wish my medication and counselling was working for me, but it's not and my anger is getting worse and worse and it's awful, I don't want to hurt you, this is all my fault" he was getting panicky and I hated seeing him so upset like this

"I don't know what to say, I'm utterly useless when it comes to your problems" I muttered

"I love you" Virgil mumbled

"I love you too" I replied and I kissed him