Painful pasts and terrible truths

Chapter 78

I was ready to tell Scott and Virgil about my decision.

"I want to leave, I can't stand it here, everything makes me unhappy" I admitted.

"Are you sure about leaving, I'm sure Virgil completely understands if you want to quit your position" Scott raised his eyebrow at me when he spoke.

"Look I've had everyone including your dad convince me to not leave, I've made up my decision and I want to f*cking leave" I sighed and I stood up.

"Olivia calm down, he only wanted to make sure that you're thinking clearly" Virgil frowned at my response.

"Don't you get all defensive with me Virgil, I want to leave, I'm sick of it here, I can't live here anymore" I raised my voice.

"Don't talk to me like that, in formal business related meetings I am your superior," Virgil snapped "I don't know why you're even here anyway you never recieved proper training."

"Well I'm sorry I'm not emotionally stable enough to have special Air Force training, you guys had everything at your disposal because of your dad, you're lucky your dad actually loved you and could use his influence to help you!" I screamed at the two of them and I stormed out of the room, I slammed the door, I've f*cked up badly, he's going to hunt me down, I need to hide and fast, he never checks the hangar so I can hide there, I stayed with my uncle for a while because it was safer.

"W-what's w-wrong" my uncle asked me, Max beeped sadly.

"I've f*cked up badly, and now I'm going to get it in the neck for trying to be confident" I sniffed.

I started crying a few moments later, I was terrified of how I was going to get yelled at, he's really going to let out his wrath on me, and he knows it's going to do more than just make me scared. He found me and he grabbed hold of my shirt collar, I felt the seams stretching as his grip tightened.

"What the f*ck were you playing at!" Virgil yelled at me, his rage had consumed him, there was no stopping him.

"Get off me!" I cried in fear, I pushed him off and I tried to punch him and escape his wrath but he just grabbed hold of my fist.

"What is your problem, can't you just explain things calmly for once" Virgil growled, the tone of his voice was scaring me.

"It's not like you're a perfect bloody example of that anyway" I hissed, before I had any time to react he raised his hand.

All I heard was a ringing silence, he had slapped me, too hard, I fell to the floor, in pain and fear, I felt something trickle down my face, it was blood, he had hit me really bad this time, I saw him step backwards, his breathing was slightly fast, he looked at his own hands and then at me, my uncle was staring at him in horror.

"I'm sorry" I heard him apologise in a panicked way before he ran away from me, I shakily stood up, my uncle forced me to sit down on his workbench as he tried to fix the nosebleed.

*Virgil's POV*

I have f*cked up, I have f*cked up so much now, I've hurt her, I haven't hurt her that much before, I walked down to the beach, I took my boots and socks off and I rolled my jeans up, I sat with my feet in the water, I looked down at my hands, I caused this, it's all my fault, if I had just tried to help her, I was shaking so much, Brains sat down next to me.

"You can lecture me all you want now, I don't care anymore, I've messed up really bad this time" I sniffed, I didn't mean to hurt her, I don't enjoy it when I accidentally hurt her, I can't control my anger at all.

"You haven't taken your medication this morning have you" Brains wondered.

I shook my head shamefully.

"I thought I could do with out it for one day, apparently I can't" I whimpered.

"The thing is you can't g-go w-without it, it's t-there to h-help you" Brains sighed, stuttering like usual.

"Does she hate me" I asked.

Brains shook his head and laughed.

"She doesn't hate y-you, she could never h-hate you, you just need to learn how to c-control your outbursts and keep t-taking your medication, you're lucky that what you did will only leave a bl-black eye and some m-minor s-swelling" Brains explained, he patted me on the shoulder and left me.

I placed my head in my hands, I'm an emotional and insomniac wreck, I'm so tired, I just want to sleep.

"And I'm guessing I chose the wrong time to come back to earth then" John chuckled and he joined me.

"Shut up, I didn't mean to hurt her" I groaned.

"I know, I know, what happened anyway" John wondered.

"I don't know, I just got so angry and then the next thing I knew I managed to hit her" I explained, I saw that my palm was red.

"Oh dear, so you haven't taken your medication" John sighed.

"Isn't it obvious" I cried, the tears wouldn't stop falling, I was sobbing violently now.

"Oh Virge, you're an idiot sometimes, I'm your big brother, you can always come to me if you need to talk about anything" John whispered, I was shaking still.

"I'm so stupid" I wailed.

"No, no, no you're not stupid, shh, it's ok" John comforted me and he wrapped his arms around me.

*Olivia's POV*

My face was hurting so much, I was clutching my jaw, why does his first instinct have to be hitting me, that's three times he's hit me, maybe I should break up with him, he seems abusive and I don't want to be abused again. I was shaking so much when I saw him, he didn't look very happy, I tried to avoid him until the end of the day. I felt safer in my own room.

"Olivia, I'm really sorry I hit you, I didn't mean to, my anger just got out of hand" Virgil apologised quietly when he opened my door.

"Come here and sit down so I can talk to you" I ordered and I placed my hand down on a spot where he could sit.

He entered my room and he sat down on my bed, I was looking into his eyes, there was a glimmer of pain and remorse, I placed my hands on his cheeks, he was freezing cold.

"Please don't stare at me like that, I feel so guilty" Virgil mumbled.

"Don't feel guilty baby, it's ok, I'm alright, your anger just got a bit out of control, that's all" I smiled and kissed his forehead.

"You're not alright though, I scared you so much" I could see the tears welling up in his eyes, oh no, I hugged him, I need to make him feel safe and happy.

"I am alright, I'm tougher than I look, go and get your pyjamas on so you can just go to bed, you've had a long day" I laughed and I kissed him.

I heard him sigh as he left my room, I climbed into bed and I snuggled down under the covers, I went on my phone for a bit, the screen is still cracked and damaged.

"Can I just sleep with you" I heard a shaky voice, I looked up to see Virgil standing timidly at my door, why has he returned.

I nodded, he crawled into bed with me and he nuzzled me.

"What's upsetting you" I wondered, rolling over to face him.

"I just want to be a normal boyfriend for you" Virgil sighed and he wrapped his arms around my waist.

"You are a perfectly normal boyfriend, you just need to work on controlling your anger" I laughed quietly and kissed him.

He's so adorable sometimes.