"What's wrong gorgeous" Virgil wondered, he tilted his head to the side like a dog, speaking of dogs Luna was curled up next to me
"Please don't be mad at me" I cried
Luna whined
"Why would I be mad at you kitten" Virgil was getting worried now
"Because I relapsed" I sniffed
His eyes widened in terror, I felt ashamed
"You shouldn't of I took away your blades" this wasn't making sense to him
I sat down, if I say anything else he'll get mad
"I got new ones, I feel like an idiot" I sighed, I was trying to conceal the next wave of tears
"No, don't feel like that, I should have kept an eye on you" Virgil whispered
"You don't need to look out for me, you're doing enough already" I growled
I was trying not to cry, crying hurts both me and him
"Olivia, what's gotten into you" Virgil was mildly upset now
I've been thinking for a while, ever since I started dating him I knew something wasn't quite right with me, I knew that I sorta enjoyed it and ignored the feeling it would go away, it isn't that I want to break up with him, I love him ever so much it's just when I have a certain special time with him it just feels empty and unenjoyable, I don't know, he's gonna hate me if I tell him, I've just been forcing myself to do it because I don't want him to laugh at me or get angry, I've read somewhere that I'm asexual, I'm just not sure
"I think I'm asexual" I told him
"Don't be silly that's how plants reproduce" Virgil laughed
"I'm being serious, I have a lack of sexual attraction towards you and any other man that I'll meet" I snapped
"Oh...why didn't you tell me sooner, you're springing this on me after I've had sex with you like four times, you're still adjusting, maybe it's because you've been sexually assaulted, maybe that's why you don't like sex" Virgil replied harshly
"No, I felt this way before I was assaulted, I felt this way with Bobby too, argh you're just too stubborn to understand me" I argued
I stormed out of the room making sure he got the message
"Why do people of my sexuality get treated like f*cking unicorns, like I exist I just don't want sex, is that hard for you to comprehend!" I shrieked at him
"Olivia I'm sorry I didn't react like you wanted me to, I just don't understand it, I've never had something like this happen before" Virgil panicked
"I explained it, I experience a lack of sexual attraction towards the opposite gender, yes I can still cuddle and snuggle you and no you won't be able to have sex with me at all, I still love you, I just didn't want to force myself to enjoy it when I really didn't enjoy it" I mumbled
"I'm sorry, I'm such an idiot" Virgil apologised, he looked a bit pale
"Are you ok" I wondered
"No, I don't feel well" Virgil told me, he looked like he was going to faint and he did, I tried to catch him but he was too heavy, I almost collapsed due to his weight, Jesus Christ yes he's muscular but muscle weighs more than fat so I'm screwed
"Ugh, Virgil why do you weigh so much" I groaned, I dragged his limp body to his room
YOU ARE READING
Painful pasts and terrible truths
Fanfiction[sequel to The Tracy Family Feud] Olivia finally plucks up the courage to tell the brothers about her past and her family life, could this have devastating effects on her relationship with the one person who cares for her and looks out for her
