"I'm sorry for hitting you whenever I get angry, I didn't mean to, I'm just scared that I'm abusive" Virgil whispered, he's still awake
"You're not abusive, I know what abusive is I've had five years of knowing what abusive feels like, and when I'm around you it feels like I'm home" I told him "I feel like I'm safe and protected"
"But I made you feel bad, I made you feel suicidal, I'm the worst thing that's ever happened to you" Virgil protested, I turned over to face him
"Shh, it's ok, I'm fine now" I laughed quietly
Virgil kissed my forehead
"I love you" Virgil reminded me
"I love you too" I smiled in response
"I'm gonna sleep now" Virgil yawned
"Ok, goodnight" I chuckled
After he fell asleep I got up, he'll kill me, I opened the door to his room, I found his keys, I need to do this, I can't survive like this, I can't survive without the drugs
"Olivia what are you doing" why is he still awake
"Nothing" I lied
"Give me the keys now" Virgil demanded
"No" I snapped
"I don't want to hurt you" Virgil placed his hands on my shoulders, why is he taller and stronger than me, he's too overpowering
"Let go" I lowered my voice
"I'll let go if you give me my keys back" Virgil mumbled
I brushed him off, I opened the door to the infirmary
"Don't you dare!" Virgil screamed
"You can't stop me, you guys won't let me go will you, even Bobby wanted me dead" I cried
"Let me guess, your ex, look, I want to have children with you, I want to start a family with you" Virgil told me
"What's the point, I wouldn't be a good mother and I can't have children, I'm infertile" I whined
"You're not infertile, your dad lied to you, I went over your medical records" Virgil explained, I gave him his keys back
"Then I want a baby so badly, but I'll fail so much as a mother" I complained
"No you won't, I'll help you, I can support you" Virgil whispered
"So, do you want to try now, or wait until we're possibly married" I wondered
"Eh I'm always up for trying now" Virgil laughed, he picked me up and he carried me to my room, we've never done this in my room before, agh what he did to me was really nice
"I think I should leave it a couple of weeks before I get tested" I decided
"Yeah, that would be best, I love you, I love every inch of your body" Virgil sighed and he stroked my cheek
"Stop it you're making me feel funny" I giggled, I felt my face go red
*two weeks later*
I sat on the toilet, just wishing this wasn't true, the test came back negative, it broke my heart and made me die internally, I wanted this baby, I wanted it badly, I hugged Virgil when I left the bathroom
"What's wrong" Virgil asked
"It came back negative" I told him
"Oh babe, it's ok, we can always try again, right" Virgil reassured me
"I really wanted that baby" I broke down into tears
YOU ARE READING
Painful pasts and terrible truths
Fanfiction[sequel to The Tracy Family Feud] Olivia finally plucks up the courage to tell the brothers about her past and her family life, could this have devastating effects on her relationship with the one person who cares for her and looks out for her
