Sorry it's been so long I've just had a massive writers block and I feel like bleh
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I couldn't sleep, I was thinking about all the relationships I could ruin due to my sexuality, then a horrible thought convinced me that I'll end up alone with no one, I broke down into tears, it's all my fault but at the same time I can't change it
"Olivia are you ok" Kayo asked me, this was surprising seeing her here
"I just came out as asexual and I can't get these horrible thoughts out of my head" I sobbed
"Oh sweetie it'll be ok, I know someone who can help" Kayo smiled
"Please don't get him, I can't look at him without him being convinced that I'm broken" I cried
"You're not broken, he'll just take some time to adjust to it" Kayo reassured me
I fell asleep in the end, I hate this, why can't I just be normal
"Good morning kitten" Virgil greeted me
I rolled over to face the wall, ignoring him makes it better and less painful
"Leave me alone" I muttered, I don't know why I feel like this, it's probably all my fault anyway
I heard no reply, he was gone, finally, I could stay here and be safe, I stayed in bed for half the day,
"Aren't you going to get up at any point, you're not going to achieve much lying in bed all day" ugh I hate him
"What's the point in getting up, I have nothing to live for" I sniffed
"Look if this is about you being asexual then you need to get your butt out of that duvet and talk to me because I need to know how you're feeling" Virgil complained
"I don't wanna" I moaned
"Fine, I'll have to get in with you" Virgil smirked, he took off his boots and he crawled into bed with me
"Ew no get away from me" I giggled
"Why should I, kitten" Virgil asked seductively
"Don't do that, it tickles" I squealed when he left of trail of kisses down the back of my neck
"Sorry" Virgil apologised
"No it's fine, I'm the one who should be sorry, I need to be honest and say that I don't find anything you do sexually attractive" I whispered
"We're going to have a bit of trouble then" he really isn't in this relationship for the same reasons I am
"How, it's quite simple, no sex at all" I growled
"You're no fun, you know that" Virgil muttered
"Ugh, I'm sorry my sexuality stops me from feeling like a normal girl, I'm f*cking broken!" I shouted at him, I felt like crying this is what my disturbed thoughts can do to me, in the end I did start crying "I'm sorry that I am broken"
"No Olivia don't feel like that-" I stopped him from speaking
"Just shut up and leave me alone, I knew you wouldn't accept me, just go, I don't want you here anymore" I ordered
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Painful pasts and terrible truths
Fanfiction[sequel to The Tracy Family Feud] Olivia finally plucks up the courage to tell the brothers about her past and her family life, could this have devastating effects on her relationship with the one person who cares for her and looks out for her
