Painful pasts and terrible truths

Chapter 36

"My relationship with him?" I repeated what the police inspector asked me

"Yes" the police inspector nodded

"He was my brother in law" I answered hesitantly

"What was he like when you first encountered him" I didn't want to answer this

"Well he seemed nice until he molested me" I muttered

"How old were you when this happened" can't she just shut up

"9 years old" I whispered

"And your sister told us that he sexually assaulted you on multiple accounts" this was triggering painful memories for me

"Just shut up!" I shouted at her, the police inspector let out a small sigh

"Why didn't you tell anyone after it had happened" the police inspector wondered

"Because in this day and age the rape victim always gets the blame it's always going to be my fault" I sniffed "I swear I didn't mean to hurt him, I didn't know what to do so I panicked, I didn't want my niece and nephews to get hurt, I wanted to protect them"

"I see, well I suppose I've finished questioning you, just get in touch with a solicitor if it turns out the self defense excuse has been rejected" the police inspector told me

I sat there after she left, I didn't answer anyone when I got back to Eden's apartment

"Honey you can't keep ignoring us, you need to talk at some point" Eden pleaded

"Hang on I know a way to get her to talk, this might take a bit of time though so you might want to take the kids out" Virgil advised her

*a few moments later*

After Eden left I got so anxious

"Please talk kitten, I can't stand seeing you like this" Virgil begged me

I didn't want to remember everything, I hugged him and I started crying

"Did they mention the assault and that" he was getting worried now

I nodded, his chest was warm and snuggly

"We had to tell them, you would of gotten locked up in an insane asylum if we didn't, I'm so sorry, I didn't realise you were still uneasy about it" Virgil apologised

I let go of him and I sat there quietly, he dug around in his pocket and found a tissue, he gently wiped my tears with it and he kissed my cheek

"I love you" I whispered

"I love you too" Virgil replied with a small smile

"Your eyes are a really nice colour" I grinned

"And yours are too, come here you feisty little kitten so I can snuggle you to death" Virgil purred and he pinned me down on the couch and he kissed me gently

"No stop it" I giggled

"Why should I stop" why is he being hot right now

"Because I said so" I pouted

"If you wanted to maybe we could..." I knew he was hinting towards something

"Ok" I sighed

"No, that sigh doesn't convince me, we don't have to do that if you're not happy" at least he grasps the basic idea of consent

"I wish I could feel some form of sexual attraction, maybe it's all this stress that has caused me to be like this" I told him

"Hmm, maybe I could try and make you feel something, I could always wait until yo-" I cut him off by kissing his soft gentle lips

"Don't bother you'll never be able to make me feel something, after everything that's happened, all I feel is pain, bad memories flood my mind every time you touch me and it hurts" I admitted 

"That's why you need to tell me if you're uncomfortable and scared, I need to know, I don't want to do more damage" Virgil mumbled and he let me go

"What's wrong" I asked him quietly

"Nothing, I just wish I could help you" there was something wrong with him

I got up and I searched the cupboards, I found some Jack Daniels in one of them and I poured some into a small glass, I gave it to him and I sat down next to him

"Why are you giving me alcohol, I don't like whiskey it reminds me of my dad" I could sense his sorrow

He was in pain, I had caused it