breathless |A Powerless Fanfiction

I hate this so much

Pae's POV

I wake up to the worst pain I have ever felt. this is worse than the contractions I have had the past few days, much worse. this feels like my insides are being pulled out and rearranged. "oh God" I gasp as I sit up and grab a fist full of the sheets gripping them tightly. I look over at Kai who is still asleep as I take deep breaths. "Kai wake up!" he doesn't move so I throw a pillow at him. 

"what? what's happening?" he sits up quickly with tired eyes but when he sees me he jumps up off the bed and runs to my side, crouching in front of me and holding my hands tightly. "is it time? is it happening? are you okay?"

I can barely breathe so I just nod to answer all his questions. 

"okay, okay, okay, were okay, I'm okay, this is okay" I can see his heart beat faster as he holds my hands. "should I go get someone? I'm going to go get someone." he starts to stand. "who do I get? I should get Octavia and Owen, yeah good idea" he is talking to himself as my hands shake and I gasp for air through all the pain. "wait I can't leave you here.  I could get an Imperial to get them. will you be okay while I find an Imperial? you will be fine for a few seconds" he kisses my head lets go of my hands and runs out the door as fast as he possibly can. 

he is only gone a few seconds before he comes running back in. "they will be here soon." he says taking my hands again. "what do you need?" 

what I need is a shit ton of wine to get my mind off of the fact that I am about to go through God knows how many hours of labor, but since I cant have that. "I need to stand up" I say 

"yeah okay yeah" he says nodding quickly as he helps me stand up slowly. I start walking in circles with Kai helping me walk around, I freeze once I stand up because I feel something pop and water starts running down my legs. "um... did... uh... your-"

"water break? yeah"

Jax, Octavia and Owen all rush into the room. "what the hell is happening!? is she dying?!" Jax asks looking terrified. 

"babe, grab a lot of towels and a bowl of water then go back to bed, and no she is not dying" Octavia says when she sees all the water on the floor and she walks over to me and taking Kai's place helping me walk around so Kai can help Owen and Jax get stuff ready. 

I hate this so much, Kai is never getting me pregnant again. 

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Kai's POV

I hate this so much, I am never getting her pregnant again. 

I hate seeing her in pain and I know I am not the one in labor but I feel like I am about to pass out with how fast my heart is beating. 

its been about 2 hours since Pae went into labor. Jax left making me promise that if it was a boy I would name it after him,  Owen has asked me if I am okay about 17 times because I keep going into shock, Paedyn has yelled at me 5 times about how I am never getting her pregnant again while also holding my hand so tight it might fall off. I am totally on board with never getting her pregnant again because this is terrible. 

Owen tried to give her something to help with the pain but her exact words were "if you give me anything besides wine I am going to kill someone" well she cant have wine and no body wants to die so he hasn't brought it up since. 

now she is standing at the end of the bed, gripping the bed frame and my hand at the same time while Octavia pushes on her lower back trying to take away some of the pressure. Octavia said she is only 7 centimeters dilated so I guess she has to be 10 centimeters to push, I'm going to faint by the time she gets to an 8. 

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oh fuck 

oh shit 

I think I am going to die 

so she is at a 10. she actually went from a 7 to a 10 in like 30 minutes so um yeah. 

now I am watching as my wife lays on our bed screaming from pain as she pushes our child out. I am doing great.... yeah fine. she has probably woken up the entire castle at this point. tears are streaming down her face and she keeps telling me she cant do it. I have prepared this speech for the last 8 months. 

"Paedyn Gray Azer look at me right now" I say firmly pulling her face towards mine. she looks into my eyes and I look into hers, wiping tears that fall out of her eyes. "take a deep breath, stop telling yourself you can't do this because I know you can. I believe in you, we all believe in you, right?" Octavia and Owen both nod and say they believe in her. tears keep streaming out of her eyes and it kills me to see her in so much. "I know it hurts, I know you want it to stop and I know you probably hate me right now because I don't know how to pull out." 

she lets out a small laugh but tears still pore out of her eyes, "I do hate you right now" 

"that's what I expected." I laugh and a few tears come out of my eyes. "you can hate me as much as you want, you can scream at me and hold my hand as tight as you want. shit you can cut off the blood circulation in my fingers if you want, but right now I need you to push. I need you to believe in yourself just as much as I believe in you. I need you to be strong and when this is all over you can sleep as long as you want, you can do whatever you want. Okay?" she nods "okay push" 

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oh my God

oh my fuck 

oh my shit

I can literally see the baby. It's almost out. holy shit 

how the hell have women been doing this for thousands of years? fuck how have their husbands been doing this without passing out?

me, Octavia and Owen keep telling Pae to push and she takes one last deep breath before pushing as hard as she can. my jaw practically falls to the floor as she screams before falling back on the pillows gasping for air and the cries of our baby fills the room. 

from where I am standing everything is in slow motion as our baby takes its first breath and Owen places it directly on Paedyn's chest. I am too shocked to move as Paedyn smiles and holds our baby to her chest still crying I'm pretty sure they are happy tears this time. I am crying so much I can barely see. 

"It's a girl" Octavia says and I can see her crying too. 

Pae looks up at me crying and laughing at the same time. "Ava" is all she says 

"Ava" I repeat through my tears

thank God it's a girl because I was not naming it after Jax 

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A\N 

I don't know why but I cried while writing this. I hope you guys liked this. I hope this accurate to what labor is like. I have never given birth or anything like this so yeah. my mom is a nurse who takes care of moms and babies after birth and she gave birth to me and my sister with no epidural so I kinda know a few things. please check out my new book about Russell and Brianna Faithful and check out the book I am writing with @areyouhavingajoke called Love At First Flight it would mean a lot to us both. anyways I gtg to bed bc it's 3 in the morning where I live. please vote and comment 

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