"Stuck In The Friend-Zone Again and Again"

"What I Feel Inside"

After a few moments, I looked up at Luke's face, studying it.

There were so many things I wanted to ask, but didn't.

Like if he thought anyone would ever really love me.

Maybe I didn't ask because I didn't want to let him in even more.

Maybe because I didn't know if I could take the answer.

Maybe both.
Probably both.

But I kept my mouth shut, and let Luke hold me like I so wanted to be held, and tried not to start crying again.

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{Luke's P.O.V.}

There were so many things I wished I could say.

I wanted to tell her that I loved her, that happy ending did exist.

I wanted to let her know that there were good people in the world, people who wouldn't hurt her, who would protect her and love her like they had only days left with her.

I wanted to tell her that I could be that person.

But I didn't.

Partially because I knew she wasn't ready for another relationship, after having all of her trust and affection taken for granted and smushed under Jake's douchebag foot.

Partially because I was super confident in the fact that she would reject me and my emotions wholeheartedly in the nicest way possible.

Because even when she's breaking you you can't hate her, can't be mad at her.

I should know.

Every time she smiled, she killed me a tad.

Every time she cried, I died a bit inside.

And though I seemed happy, at night, much like Paris confessed to doing, when I was sat alone with my thoughts, I felt broken.

I also felt stupid for feeling broken, because Paris wasn't doing anything wrong, she was the one who had had her heart broken, and was just stumbling around trying to find her way to mend it.

And I was sat there bumbling like an idiot trying not to mess things up and make them worse.

Because what else do you do when you're in love with your best bloody female friend who's been recently heartbroken?

A/N: v short update because I'm tired and I'm sorry I might be going away for the weekend but I'll be working on an update if I do because it's a long drive.