Tom Kaulitz

♡ Part 35 ♡

Two long years. Dreadful two long years..

Finally I was discharged from the hospital. Finally Im healed. I still get chills down my spine when I think about what had happened that night.

Tom. I miss Tom. he's out doing tours and having fun. I'm pretty sure he forgot about me. I hope not though I hope Im still somewhere in the back of his mind. That whole entire situation. That—that mess I made!

I slam my desk with the palm of my hands. "FUCK!"

I'm so angry at myself. I mean come on Kiara seriously?

After my mom died I never got over it. although I seemed so normal I wasn't.. mentally I wasn't. I was a huge mess and one day I just snapped. I went crazy. I thought i was dead. See how crazy?

I feel a hand on my shoulder. "You okay girl? Do you need anything?" Jayla says, tighting her grip on my shoulder. "No— i'm just overstimulated.. I mean seeing my room again.. and the pictures of Tom.." I begin to feel a lump in my throat. "I just want everything to go back to the way it was." Jayla sighs. She makes me face her and cups my face with her hands. "Listen, I know how much you love tom and how badly you want him. But I don't think he would wanna see you. Not in a rude way of course but— goodness everything that happened with you? It was wild."

A tear slips down my face, Jayla wipes it away. "I mean Georg and Gustav are cool with seeing you again. It might take them a bit since they're in Alabama currently."

I sniff, "What about Bill and Tom?"

Jayla sighs again, "I don't know.. I mean if Tom doesn't wanna see you i doubt Bill will either."

"Tom's lowkey a man whore now."

I turn around and see my sister, Cora. She chuckles, leaning against the door frame with her arms crossed. "Gotta say, you look way better than the last time i saw you."

I roll my eyes. "You never know how to act do you?" I spin back around facing my wall full of pictures of Tom and I. There's one where we were having a picnic on the beach and he was feeding me chocolate covered strawberries, a sunset behind us. "What do I even do with this wall now."

"Depends.." Cora says, pushing herself off the door frame and entering my room. "Do you wanna be sad about how you guys broke up for the rest of your life or do you wanna just.. burn it?"

I spin around with the most shocked look on my face.

Jayla steps between us, blocking my view of Cora. "Okay we are not doing that Cora." Kiara just got back and it's gonna be really overwhelming for her.

"Well it's hot girl summer too. She needs to let go and just.. be happy!" Cora walks over to the wall covered with pictures of Tom and I.

Quickly, I move in front of it spreading my arms out, trying to protect it. "I swear Cora if you touch any one of these pictures I will murder you."

Cora backs away, hands in the air as a way of surrendering. "Okay damn.. take a chill pill."

"How am i supposed to chill Cora? My ex boyfriend that I am still super fucking in love with is on tour probably fucking around with some other girls." I comb my fingers through my hair. "Okay maybe I shouldn't have mentioned that." Cora cringed.

"Cora please get out. Kiara does not need any of this stress and overstimulation." Jayla says while gently pushing Cora outside of my bedroom.

I walk over to my bedside table and pick up my phone. I open it up and instantly I see a bunch of notifications from Tom. I go to our chats and scroll through paragraphs and paragraphs. I started reading the most recent one.

TOMMY♥️
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Kiara I really need you. It's been 6 months since you've been gone. Our fans are making stupid conspiracy theories, or are assuming that you cheated or that maybe I cheated.. It's so fucking stupid. I'm currently on tour in New Jersey and thinking about you. Hopefully you get out soon. I love you.
sent at 6:37 pm

Bill, Georg, and Gustav miss you as well and are wishing you the best.
sent at 6:39 pm

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The lump in my throat gets bigger. My chest feels tighter. This was from two years ago. He probably just completely forgot about me.

Fuck that. Fuck him.

I felt myself getting angry. How come he's already over me? it took him a few months to get over me but here I am stuck in this stupid town sad and whining because of him. He doesn't even think of me anymore why should I care about him anymore.

I placed my phone on my bed and turned to face Jayla.

"You good? You look like... angry.. no wait! Sad. Ugh I don't know. Both?"

"Help me take these stupid pictures down."

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