When even darkness is no longer sad
but only calming, a brighter point, a light
and light is much too bright for eyes
well clearly nothing is right
Although I wrote
only for you to read
I knew you never would
my heart is only full of greed
I will never learn, I never do
I know I can smile, but I won't
I know he would give me hope again
if I would only look at him a while, but I don't
I will only allow myself
to stay as I am, which is sad
If I cried, until I fell asleep
is that bad?
Instead of seeing things
that could make me smile
instead of being with my friends
I sat here in the dark awhile
Instead of music that makes you dance
that makes you always sing along
I turned on music that makes me sad
pianos, violins, a wordless song
You said I should smile
"please eat" , you looked gently upon me
I refused again and laid down
"how many days is that now, three?"
It had been four, but I dare not correct you
"I love you, call if you need me"
you left the room with near crying eyes
and I cried in stupid self-pity
I looked out at the rain
the world is such a beautiful place
I saw a picture of us together
different tears stained my face
I pulled out my cell and called him
"Can you please come home now?"
in minutes you stood in front of my face
You found a way to smile at me somehow
"I'm so sorry", I hugged you as tight as I could
and you looked back at me strange
then you smiled once again
since I last looked, really looked, you didn't change
You're hair was wet, probably from the rain
I weakly touched that face, once more
"Thank you for everything, also for loving me," I spoke and you cried
I dried those tears, "don't cry anymore."
You smiled and I fell into those arms
I know after years, you still may be sad
but go on, and I will watch you be happy then
I'm glad the last thing I saw was the smile you always had
YOU ARE READING
Poems~!
Poetrybasically it's a collection of my poems and what not. . . it's pretty random, some are happy, some are sad, some are weird and others creepy
