Chapter One - Loneliness

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I stared outside the window. It was a beautiful day, not a cloud to be seen. I had a good view from my window, showing the gardens and the children's playground. But it didn't change where I was. I turned my head slowly to face the plain white walls of my hospital room.

I hadn't left this bed in what felt like forever. I hadn't left this room in weeks. I simply wasn't well enough. I was used to the off-white walls and the various medical equipment that littered the floor.

But I wasn't used to this feeling of loneliness. Today was my parents' funeral. I say 'was' like it already happened. No, it's happening right now. And I'm not there.

You're probably wondering how this all happened. I guess I'll start with myself. My name is Cooper. Yeah, I know, it's a boys name and I'm a girl. I used to be really defensive about it, but when I was diagnosed with brain cancer, I kind of stopped caring. As for my parents, well, they were the greatest. Last week, well, it was some kind of freak accident. An oversized truck didn't look before turning, and hit our car right on. So then they died. I was told that it flipped a few times, and I was also told that my sister didn't die immediately. She died a few hours later in the same hospital as me. Just in a different ward.

There was a knock at the door. "Hey sweetie," Nurse Genella said, "I've got to take your vitals now."

"Sure" I said, putting my arm out. Nurse Genella was one of my favourite nurses. She never missed with the needle, and let me have an extra serve of dessert. But even seeing her today couldn't lift my spirits.

"How are you doing sweetheart?" She asked as she took my blood pressure.

"The headaches have begun to fade..."

"You know that's what I meant." Nurse Genella sighed.

"I miss them. I want to be there." I said softly, wiping my eyes a little with my shoulder. The tears had already begun to fall.

Nurse Genella looked a little choked up herself. "It'll get easier honey, I promise." She said, tapping my shoulder lightly.

"Yeah, maybe" I mumbled.

"Do you want to watch GMM? You can use my phone if you want. I just upgraded my phone plan, so you can catch up all the episodes you missed." Nurse Genella said. She handed me her phone. The cold metal felt strange in my clammy hands. I hadn't held anything in awhile except for the occasional cutlery at dinner times. My muscles were very weak from all the medication, so more often than not the nurses spoon fed me. I hate chemotherapy.

"Do you need some help sweetie?"

I reluctantly held the phone up as Nurse Genella found the video. "It's in a playlist, so they should all play after each other" she said.

"Thank you" I said softly.

Nurse Genella smiled. "It's no problem. I know you like this stuff, and I think you need a little light in your life right now."

I glanced back down at the phone screen as the intro played. This show took me out of this stupid hospital room for 10 minutes a day. Probably the best 10 minutes of the day to be honest. I hadn't watched all week. I used to watch on my Mom's phone, but she was gone now.

I watched all 5 episodes in rapid succession of each other. And it was incredible. I laughed so hard. Rhett and Link never fail to make me do that. Nurse Genella sat on the seat beside me, watching as well. This has probably been the best thing to happen all week.

When it finally finished today's episode, I used as much strength as I could gather to hand the phone back to Nurse Genella.

"Thank you for that. That was...the best thing." I said, searching for words.

"It was nice to see you smile. I haven't seen it all week." Nurse Genella said.

I sighed a little. This room was normally buzzing with life. My Mom and Dad took shifts between staying at the hospital with me. My Mom came to see me in the morning till about 1:30, when she went to work. My sister then came when school finished. And my Dad would come after dinner. On the weekends, everyone was here. But now...there was just emptiness.

I looked over at the table beside my bed. Mom and Dad used to bring me fresh flowers every single day. But now, the flowers in the vase were wilted. They were still there from the last day I saw them. A week ago today. Saturday afternoon. The memory was still fresh in my mind.

"Do you want me to get rid of those?" Nurse Genella asked.

"No, please don't" I rasped.

"Okay. I won't touch them if you want me to." Nurse Genella said. She gently ran her hand over my bald head. Well, there was some peach fuzz that had grown, but other than that, I was bald. I didn't really like it, but I didn't have a choice.

"What's going to happen to me?" I asked.

"What do you mean?" Nurse Genella said.

"If my parents are gone, then who's paying for my treatment? Am I going to be chucked out of this place?"

"I don't know honey. They're not going to kick you out of here, I know that for certain. They can't not give you care if you need it to survive. As for your treatment, I have no idea. Do you have any uncles or aunts or grandparents?"

I shook my head slightly. I didn't have any relatives that I knew about. Well, except for Uncle Randy. But I hadn't seen him since I was 9.

My dad and my uncle had apparently went halves on a lottery ticket, and they won over a million dollars. However, because Uncle Randy had picked the numbers and the ticket was in his name, he took 90% of the money. My father didn't think that was fair. There was a big court case about it. I don't remember much about it, but my father and my uncle refused to talk after that. I think he moved across the country. I'm pretty sure he doesn't even know I'm sick.

"I'll talk to the doctors and try and get some information about what's happening. I think you've still got chemo on Wednesday, because that's already paid for."

I sighed. "I was hoping to get out of that"

Nurse Genella chuckled. "Get some rest Coop, I'll be back in a few hours with dinner."

I nodded silently and turned to face the window again. Nurse Genella left and I was on my own again. The funeral would be over now. It sent chills down my spine. They were buried now. My family. So I was well and truly alone. There was still this feeling of disbelief, that they could walk through the door at any second. But I knew that wasn't going to happen.


Hey Everyone!

Welcome to the new fanfic! Yay! This one is going to be sad, but I'm really excited about it. I hope you are too. I've prewritten some chapters for it during the week, and I really hope you like them. So, introduction to Cooper. What do you think so far? At the moment she's in a bit of a dark place. The first few chapters are mainly focused on her, and then R&L will come in. Leave me a comment of what you think! I was on the fence about whether to post this book or not, so feedback is much appreciated. Thanks for reading the first chapter!

Be Your Mythical best!

Zoe :)


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