Harry's POV
It's been a couple of days since Jade has left. I kept the necklace I was going to give her in my pocket with me everyday. It was a reminder that I wasn't good enough. It still hurts. I refuse to let anger and bitterness take over me. I know she wouldn't want that. I hope she is happy wherever she is. I couldn't force her to love me, but I'll never stopped loving her.
Right now we are backstage at a talk show. We already we promoting the new album. I was scrolling through my photos. I had 415 photos in an album of images just of Jade. I was looking through them. I found myself looking at them a lot lately. It's probably not healthy for my mental state. I'm suppose to forget her. I just can't bring myself to do it.
Lux is running around backstage. I pick her up before she runs into something or someone she's not suppose too. I show her the images of Jade. "Look this is Jade." I slide my finger across the screen to each image. "Olivia, Olivia, Olivia." She says giggling in my lap clapping her hands. She points at her face. "Olivia? Whose Olivia? That's Jade." I say tickling her. She shakes her head. "No, Olivia." I look at the her again. "Olivia?" She nods her little head.
"Oh, Lux have you been speaking nonsense again." Lou says taking her from my lap. "Lou do you know something?" I question. "Harry she's just a child she doesn't know what she is saying." I look at her. I stand to me feet.
"Lou, what aren't you telling me?" I growl. She sighs. "I promised I wouldn't say anything." "Then write it down." I snap.
"What's going on?" Liam comes over. I've never spoken to Lou that way, but if she's hiding something that concerns Jade things will change. "Lux thinks this is Olivia." I show him the picture.
"You don't think that she changed her name or something do you?" Niall asks.
I read the paper Lou has slide over to me. "I didn't say anything." She puts her hands up defensively and gives me a wink. I turn it over and read it. That son of a bitch. I read it again.
"Now One Direction with us." How am I suppose to go out there when I've just learned the truth. She was sent away, because of us, because of me. She had to leave everything behind and start fresh. And it's all my fault.
The lads did most of the talking. Until I was asked something. "Harry your awfully quiet today, where is your girlfriend, Jade." Oh how I wished to say 'some mother fuckers drove her away.' "She is no longer with me. She had to go and do her own thing for a while. It hurts seeing her leave, but I can't just think about myself." I answer. It wasn't a total lie. I do care about her and agree with all decisions she make. "I'm sorry to hear that. She brought out the best in you. We all saw." I muster a smile. "I know." The rest of the night was the discussion of our upcoming album.
"It's still a working progress. There are a few adjustments need to be made." I say after everything has been said. "I have a new song in mind at the moment." I smirk.
We thank him for having us on his show. We sign a few autographs and take some pictures. My mood had a whole turn. I knew she was fine and she didn't mean what she said. I wish I only knew where I could find her.
I grab Louis arm and pull him to the side. "You were right about Jade." He grins from ear to ear. "I told you. I knew something wasn't right." He starts to spin around and dance in place.
I give the guys the note Lou had given me earlier. "You know what this means, right?" I ask them.
"Jade didn't really leave she was forced too."
"She does really love you."
"We are going to go after her."
I shake my head. "Yes, but I have something else in mind. Fellas I think we need to start writing. I have a new song in mind." I smirk.
***
"Olivia? Why would you like to change one of the songs out of your original playlist. It's fine just the way it is." Simon says.
"I thought it had a nice ring to it." I say rocking on the heel of my foot. "Do you not like it?"
"That's not it. It's just that out of everything you could have come up with you chose this." He coughs. Clearing his throat.
"Funny how things work. Isn't it?" Liam chuckles.
"Yes. Alright I will add it to the new set. It's been a pleasure gentlemen. And please don't forget you have a press release at the end of this week. Especially with this new change."
"Well we will be on top of that, since we do not have any distractions anymore." I scoff.
"Right. No more distractions. I'm glad the girl came to her senses."
"Of course." I smirk.
Asshole.
