It's now two in the morning & I lay in bed next to Daniel & I feel terrible. I feel like I've lost myself & all that I used to stand for. I look back on the person I once was & I begin to realize I've become someone I no longer know. I was lashing out on Sydney, lying to my friends & making irrational decisions just for the heck of it. This wasn't okay, none of this was. My stomach is upset & I feel like I owe so many people apologies, but I don't even know where to begin. I know I need to be honest about my lies before it eats me alive, but I don't think I'm ready to admit that I let one boy changed who I was entirely.
I can hear Daniel roll over, he throws his arm on me. Usually I'd be happy, but I'm not. I feel like he kind of took advantage & that's more upsetting to me than anything else. My back is facing him, as he gets my hair out of my face he tells me he's going to shower. I quickly ask if he could drop me off at Katie's because I promised her I'd be there for breakfast, he agreed. I just wanted to be home, somewhere safe. Katie's house was the next best thing.
Daniel gets into the shower, I can hear the water running. My heart is racing, I feel so nauseous. I look at my phone & begin to text Syd:
I'm sorry about everything, you were right.Although I was wrong about Daniel, I don't want Syd to have the satisfaction of being right. I delete my message & begin checking my Instagram, Twitter & Snapchat. I see Katie & Liv's about having a good time together; part of me feels like I should've just stayed at Katie's & part of me wishes I didn't feel like this. A night I had been waiting to happen for week, came & went & it was nothing of what I'd planned.
I feel ashamed of myself, I can't believe I let this happen. Was I the only one noticing the terrible person I've slowly been transforming into?
*bzz, bzz*
A phone goes off, but it's not mine. I look around the bed but I can't find anything, finally, I find the phone hidden in the bedside drawer underneath some clothes; someone is calling. I decide to pick up the phone to see & all it says is "Livy" with a bunch of random kissy face emojis & hearts. I feel my heart drop. I gasped, what the hell was going on? I answer the phone:
Yeah, hello? Who is this?
There's nothing but silence & static. I can faintly hear something playing in the background, but I can't make out what it is.
Hello!? Who's calling? Hello! Say something!
The phone quickly disconnects, without the other person saying a word. Not only am I furious that some girl with a bunch of kissy, heart emojis is calling Daniel, but also the fact that he lied! I'm so disgusted with him, I seriously just want to leave already! I can't help but be upset, but I need to know who the heck "Livy" is. I open up his text messages, she was the last one he text. I think to myself & wonder if I should even do this, I take a deep breath..
I justify my actions by telling myself "you deserve answers Annie"I'm nervous, all my emotions come hitting me at once. I click on her name, my heart drops. The last text to her from his was a picture of me in my bathing suit that said "see, told you I could get your friends" to which "Livy" replied back with "please stop, leave Annie alone!" Who the hell was Livy & how did she know my name!? Curiosity got the best of me as I checked the phone number of the contact, I dropped the phone. I couldn't believe what I've seen, I can't believe any of this! Guess I wasn't the only one lying to my friends.
I hear the water from the shower dim down, I know he's coming out. I frantically close all the apps I snooped through & put his phone back where I found it & lay back onto the bed. My heart is racing, my chest feels tight. I NEED to leave this place as soon as possible! I finally gain some composure & begin to gather the things I brought with me. I feel so gross & disgusted, I just need to be with someone who can keep it real with me.
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It's Complicated
FanfictionIt's been almost 9 years since Bratayley was first created, my how life has become crazy! With the loss of Caleb the family has had struggles dealing with it and coming to terms. Annie is now in high school and has normal teenaged girl drama. Hayley...