It's Complicated

Chapter 45: But Can I Trust You?

*THIS CHAPTER HAS BEEN WRITTEN IN BRENNAN OR KATIE'S POV; COMMENT AFTER THE FIRST PARAGRAPH WHO YOU THINK IT IS & THEN FINISH THE CAPTER TO SEE IF YOU WERE RIGHT!*

Annie texts that she's here at the house, I immediately run to the front door to let her in, "Thank gosh it's you! Can I please crash here tonight?" I don't say anything, I pull her in a hug & hold her tightly. She seems frighten & scared, I want to know what happened but I don't want to upset her by asking. I grab her hand & I lead her downstairs to our guest bedroom, we lie down & talk for a moment. "Is everything okay Annie?" I asked in a rather concerned manner, I'm worried for my friend. She begins to sniffle, she sheds a couple of tears too but I wipe them off her face. "I don't know. I'm just confused about a lot of things, you know? He loves me, I know he does, I just.. Never mind." She rolls over & puts her back towards me, I'd never seen her this upset over a guy. It crushes me inside knowing that so much has been going on & she hasn't told me a single thing, I thought we were closer than that.

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I get sit up in the bed & grab my drawing pad & begin a sketch of her. "You'd tell me if he ever hurt you, right? I mean, I know we've had our issues, but that doesn't make us any less of friends. I care about you & I need to know you're okay." I swallow a big lump that was in my throat as I awaited a response. "I just, I don't know. Can I still trust you? You broke that trust when you began telling people my business!" She rolls back over & is now facing me. I keep my face buried in my sketchbook, trying to hide my tears. "I'm sorry that I'm a worried friend. I need you to be okay, I need to know you're fine. I can't lose you!" I begin sobbing uncontrollably, Annie remains laying down & just stares at me. "It's just, you told Kim, of all people. You know how I feel about her right now. If I wanted her to know, I would've told her!" She lays on her back & throws her arms over her eyes, covering her tears.

"I thought you respected me more. I thought I could trust you & I couldn't & it killed me that you ran with my information & told others!" She begins hysterically crying, all the emotions hit me. I instantly felt like the world's shittiest friend. I know she doesn't really care that I told Kim, yes it upset her, but it upset her more that I told other gym girls. "I'm sorry, I didn't know what to do. I thought Kim could get to you, I thought the other girls would know what to do! You can trust me Annie, you know you can!" I don't know what else I can say! I can't take back the damage that's been done, all I can do is apologize & hope for the best. "I don't know, Kate. & just because I'm here, doesn't mean we're okay. I'm upset, I'm heart broken, but more importantly I'm disappointed.."

I don't cry, I don't even shed a single tear. I make no noises but we sit in silence. It's harsh what she said, it really is. But it's true, I betrayed a trust that I've had for years with her over something I didn't know anything about. I don't blame her, I'd probably be just as mad too. I know I haven't been the best of friend either, I know I constantly blow her off for Zach but I don't mean to. It's just, he's my boyfriend & he makes me happy. She's my best friend & we used to do everything together but we grow up, I can't help that we began to grow apart.

I begin to fall asleep when I hear Annie trying to muffle her cries. I roll over & rub my eyes, "You okay? Do you need anything?" She pulls me into a hug & cries in my arms, I can't help but get teary-eyed myself. She pulls back & we lay face to face holding hands. She wipes her tears off her cheeks & takes a huge breath. Her voice is shaky & soft, "You can't repeat this to anyone, please Kate, I don't need him or even myself in trouble." I nod my head in agreement but we both know I'll tell someone if things are seriously wrong.