It's Complicated

Chapter 44: The Way The Cookie Crumbles

The entire ride back home is just Daniel punching the steering wheel & me sobbing. I just don't know why he's acting out like this. "Daniel please, stop driving so fast! Please! You're scaring me!" He's driving recklessly & far over the speed limit. I become more paranoid when he begins to weave in & out of traffic as if he were playing some video game. "Daniel! Please!" I continue to plead in hopes that he'll calm down. He switched lanes abruptly & barely misses the tail end of another car. I scream, "STOP! I'M SCARED!" He slams down on the breaks in the middle of traffic. Luckily I had my seatbelt on & so did he, otherwise things would've ended ugly.

"Could you stop your fucking bitching for a moment? Jesus Christ, Julianna! Other people are upset here!" He begins to drive again, I don't say another word. I'm not afraid of him, I'm just afraid when he drives erratically. "I just hate seeing you with that scum bag. He only wants you for one thing. & you're dumb enough to fall for it!" I can't blame him for being upset, I mean I'd be pretty upset if I were in his situation. "It isn't like that though, it's never been like that. It will never be anything more than a sibling-like bond." I'm persistent on him knowing that it's innocent. I know the more I say it's nothing it seems like something, but there is literally nothing going on.

We pull into the parking lot of his apartment, he parks the truck, unstraps his seatbelt & looks at me. He grabs my face with both his hands, but he isn't hurting me whatsoever. "Julianna, I don't want you near him. I don't want him near you. I don't want you talking to him or texting him, understood?" I begin to think about how hard it would be to avoid Brennan, I mean, I see him at lest 10 times a week because of our gym carpool. But I haven't seen him lately, so maybe it won't be too hard. Daniel puts light pressure on my face as he holds it, "hello, Julianna?" I quickly snap back into reality & shake my head in agreement with him, I just wanted him to be happy.

We go back inside & lie down on the couch. He cuddles me & holds me in his arms, I feel secure. He begins to rub his hand up & down my arm before placing his hand on my waist. He kisses the nape of my neck multiple times, I push myself closer towards him. I begin to fall asleep when he rolls on top of me, well straddling me. "Let's go get dinner! Just me & you, to make up for earlier. Dress fancy, we're going somewhere nice!" A smile appears on face & I immediately push him off of me & straddle him. I pin his arms above his head & kiss him. "You're the best boyfriend anyone could ever ask for!" I plant a kiss on him & then let his arms free when he catches me & begins to make out with me passionately. His lips against mine are soft. They're just so plump & cute. It's like a constant firework show every time we kiss, every time out lips touch one another. I pull back from him & I can't help but laugh knowing if I hadn't stopped it, things would've gotten crazy. I jump off the couch & drag Daniel to the bedroom to look for clothes.

The only "fancy"'dress I packed was a black, asymmetrical body-conscious dress from ASOS & although it was a cute dress, it showed what curves I had & which ones I lacked. As I stare at myself in the mirror wearing the dress I notice I don't have hips, but my thighs are big. I don't have boobs but my butt is decent. I'm shaped like a 10 year old boy. It's upsetting, you know? To look into the mirror & never actually be satisfied with what you see. It kills me inside.

Daniel walks out in black slacks with his white dress shirt on & his sleeves rolled up to his elbows. Damn, did he look hot. (Yes, 'damn Daniel' was in full force.) I can't help but be in total awe of how handsome he looked. I nervously tug at my dress & cover my stomach with my arms. "Wow Daniel, you look really handsome." He gives me a smirk & walks towards me with his hands in the air, "no Jules, you look smokin' hot!" He hugs me & twirls me around, I feel like a princess.