It's Complicated

Chapter 12: Unlucky

Months have come & gone, I still haven't fully told anyone what happened. Mom is still so worried, I want to tell her I do, but I don't want her to be disappointed in me. My heart is heavy & I feel so hurt. How could I have been so foolish & naive to believe a guy like him cared about a girl like me? I knew I was moving too fast but he assured me things were fine, I can't believe I trusted him. I know I'm mad at him, but the more I think of him I think of Liv & then I become full of rage! How does your "best friend" betray you like that!? She knew! She knew & didn't tell me anything! Now this has me questioning our whole friendship! Not only had I gotten my heart broken by a boy but also by my best friend!

"Annie! It's almost time to leave to Gymschool! Make sure you have all your school stuff & your overnight bags!"

Crap. I almost forgot I was staying at Katie's tonight. It'll be the first night since the incident that I stay at someone's house. I won't lie, I'm still shaken by the whole thing but I can't let it control my life. I need to suck it up & focus on what's important to me like my friends, family & gymnastics. I mean after all our last meet before states is quickly approaching! I needed to have my head in the right place for this next meet! But with all the drama, I couldn't have been less prepared.

"Julianna Grace! Now! LET'S GO!"

My heart sank into my stomach. Instant reminder of Daniel. Why? Why did I let him call me that? I take a deep breath, grab my things & head down stairs. The steps seem like they're never ending. Each time I step down it feels like ten more appear. I finally make it down to the living room, only to see an empty house; where was everybody? I quickly shuffle my way to the kitchen to grab a yogurt & an apple, no sooner had I shut the refrigerator door my mom honks the horn of her car!

"You're slower than molasses kid! Hurry up or you'll be late!"

Mom clearly has zero patience today, I however am not in the mood to be yelled at simply because of something my siblings probably did.

"Chill out, I was grabbing breakfast!"

"Excuse me, I don't know who the hell you think you're talking to with that mouth. No ma'am! This is it Julianna! I'm at my wits-end with you!"

Can't blame anyone but myself for this lecture bomb that just happened.

"I can't deal with this anymore. What do you want me to do? You're barely managing honor roll, you're not placing well in meets, you're always so emotional. Please! Tell me what the hell is going on so I can help the situation!"

My eyes become watery & my voice becomes shakey. I can't deal with this right now, why does she have to this to me? I turn my head towards the window, I don't want her to see me crying.

"Can we leave to gymscool & talk about this later?"

I think she knows I'm crying, but she doesn't say a word. Mom pulls out of the driveway & rubs my leg, I guess to give reassurance. It was kind of nice. Staring out the window is so dramatic, but so cinematic. I love looking at the wilting leaves & the color change of the seasons, it's like art. I get so lost sometimes just admiring the nature & scenery around us.

"We're halfway there so if you want to eat breakfast I suggest you start now!"

Crap, again! I totally forgot I had breakfast, I wasn't really in the mood to eat but Mary (my coach of many years) hates when we show up without eating breakfast. I loved Mary, she felt like a big sister to me but also kind of like a gym mom. I don't know what you'd call that but she's family to me either way. I begin to eat my yogurt when BAM, mom hits a speed bump & yogurt flies everywhere on me. When I say everywhere, I mean on my leo, my pants, my jacket. All on my clothes & we were already running late, why is this my luck?