It's Complicated

Chapter 48: The Storm

Laying in bed, I can still hear the rain falling. I can still feel my stomach pulsating but it's finally dying down. I can't help but lay here & wonder what really went on. Part of me wants to get down to the bottom of all of this, while another part of me trusts Daniel. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think. I grab my phone & begin to text Kim:
I know it's been forever, I'm sorry. But I really need you right now. I can't do this without you.
Tears fill my eyes as I type my message. As I hit send & wait for the delivery report a message pops up. Message not sent. My heart feels like it breaks all over again, I know what this message means.. It means I've been blocked.

I wipe my tears from my face & begin to react on my own emotions. I quietly gather all of my belongings & stick them back into my bag. I make my way to Brennan's room & I knock on the door softly, hoping they'll hear. He quickly answers the door, half dressed. In a soft, raspy voice he asks, "What's wrong? Why are you crying?" I forgot that my eyes swell up almost immediately after crying, I become hysterical again being that he noticed. I basically fall into his arms & Lauren walks towards the door. "Is everything okay, here? You okay, Annie?" I can't form sentences in the midst of the hysteria, instead they let me cry it out as Brennan hugs me tightly. I suppose I was crying much louder than expected as everyone came out of their rooms; their only concern was if I was okay.

Daniel soon follows & walks towards, grabbing me by the arm, "Let's go back to bed, Jules" I grab onto Brennan's hand as Daniel tries to drag me away. I try to shake him off me, but he's clearly much stronger than I am. This only infuriates him & sent him from 0 to 60 in .03 seconds flat. "Let's go back to bed, Julianna!" He says in a stern voice as he applies pressure on the arm he has grip on. I try to withhold from reacting but it becomes too much. I reluctantly release Brennan, still in tears as I walk alway. No one knows what to say or do. After Daniel pushes me back into the bedroom, he then turns around & yells at our friends, "Go the fuck to sleep!" He slams the door shut & makes his way back to bed.

There's a small chair in this room, one a mom would use to maybe nurse their baby comfortably. I sit down & cry in the corner, hoping to not deal with any of this. "Get in bed, Julianna!" Daniel says from the bed. I shake my head no, he can clearly see me even though the room is dark. I try to stop my sniffles but it only seems to make matters worse. "I'm not kidding Julianna, get back into bed!" This time his voice felt more demanding, as if he were trying to show some authority over me. I don't respond back to him & I sure as hell don't leave my spot. He then sighs grumpily & gets out of bed, making his way towards me. He then grabs me by the arms, squeezing me, hoping that I'll break & follow his orders.

I don't remember much as things became fuzzy, but I remember him squeezing me until the pain began to subside even though he was still holding me. I guess that should've been my sign that I passed out because of the pain. I woke up in bed next to him. I was completely creeped out & all I wanted to do was run away. I know it sounds like I'm being dramatic but I couldn't help the way it made me feel. I try to slither out of bed, but he catches me. "Where do you think you're going?" I continue walking to the door, trying my best to ignore him. He climbs out of bed & follows me to the door. "Hello, I fucking asked you a question!" He says as he turns me around, resulting in us making direct eye contact. I try to keep my calm & I begin to turn the doorknob, when he pins me against the door.

"Hello. Answer me when I'm talking to you!" I'm dumbfounded, I honestly don't even know what to say. He presses himself on top of me, I can feel his breath, I swear I can hear his heart beating. He's full of rage, his body is tense, he won't back down. "Hello, Julianna, I'm talking to you!" He grabs me & begins to shove me towards the bed, where he eventually pushes me down. I roll off & now the bed is between the both of us. He begins to make his way towards me, I scream as loud I can. "STOP! Leave me alone!" I shout, hoping someone else will hear me.

He begins to throw items, anything he can get his hands on. I try to dodge items, but it's becoming nearly impossible. "What is your fucking deal, man?" He begins to knock things off the dresser & nightstands, breaking glass items; he's only getting louder & more aggressive. I try to hide in a corner, really just trying to protect myself but somehow a piece of glass that's broken flies & makes contact with my left cheek & forehead. I can feel the blood rushing down my face & I know I need to remove myself from the situation, but I'm in utter shock. I slowly move my hand onto my face, I feel the blood on my hand. I slowly move it from my face, looking at my hand & examining it. He notices I'm bleeding & stops his rampage.

He immediately runs, grabs a towel & comes towards me. He then folds up this small towel & presses it onto my face. "Baby, I'm so sorry! This wasn't supposed to happen! Please! I love you, you know that!" I'm still sitting in this corner of the bedroom in shock, unable to speak, unable to fully process what just actually went on. "Annie, please! I'm sorry! Just lets lay down! We're both upset right now, please!" I then take over holding the towel on my face while he tries to help me up & towards the bed. He guides me to where I was sleeping & props pillows up against the headboard for me. As I crawl back into bed, a million thoughts go through my mind. Daniel then makes sure I'm safely on the bed & he lays in bed, placing his head on my lap.

The bleeding from my face eventually stops, well at least enough for me to lay down in bed. Still, my mind keeps going back to what I saw today. I need to know what Daniel & Addison were doing alone together. I don't want to sound like one of THOSE girlfriends, but I had a right to know. I push Daniel's head off my lap & begin to wiggle myself down onto the bed, eventually laying down on the right side of my body. "What was that for , Jules?" He says in a groggy-sleepy voice. I let out a loud sigh, but I don't say a word to him. "Jules, what's wrong?" I feel extreme pain right now. Not only is my face still hurting from the glass, but my stomach hurts from those cuts too. I begin to cry, it's all become too much.

"Julianna! Julianna! What the fuck is wrong?" He keeps asking, but I don't say anything. Eventually he gets out of bed & turns the lights on.

I'm in a catatonic state, well at least it feel like it. Everything seems like a movie scene where everything is blurry & the room is spinning. I feel lightheaded but that may be due to the loss of blood. I find the strength to get out of bed & begin to walk towards the door, he follows me & continues to shout out my name, each time he gets louder & louder. I grab the doorknob & open the door to find Brennan & our friends standing outside our door. I feel the slightest bit of relief. I try to give a smile to let them know I'm okay, but it's too much. I begin to fall down & Brennan somehow manages to catch me from falling.