My Heart Lies With You (A Dimon fanfiction ft. Wilmer Valaderrama)

Don't Be Ashamed Of Yourself

Don't Be Ashamed Of Yourself

Chapter 22

Simon's POV

 The next day...

      I'm in the midst of my first physical therapy session. They're starting off small given that I just had a heart attack yesterday. I can't seem to forget that I did. Someone reminds me every five minutes of my heart problems. I'm probably going to have surgery. They told me that if I do, it'll most likely be tomorrow. The only thing is I don't want to do it when Demi's watching me. It depresses me because it shows her just how much older than her I really am. The nurse gently ushers Demi out of the room. Demi tells me that she's going to grab lunch but she'll be back in an hour. 

      The nurse is named Pat. She is in her early 40s. She's been very good to me from what I've heard. She has me do basic stretches, breathing analysis, heart rate checks, and walking with a walker. Our session is running a bit longer than planned because it's my first one and Pat's trying to get a handle on my capabilities. Demi pops in the door. I grab the water on my bedside table and throw it at the door to scare her off.  I think it worked because she jumps back and looks at me with pained eyes. I feel like such an asshole but I just can't having Demi see me this weak. Pat goes into the hallway to talk her and I'm left alone to reflect on the mess I should made.

Demi's POV

      Pat comes into the hall to talk to me. "Demi, you know Simon didn't mean that. He kindly asked me to not have anyone in the room during physical therapy. That even includes the boys of One Direction. Our session ran a bit late today because I wanted to be through so I can determine his physical therapy schedule for the near future. I'm sure if you go in there now, he'll apologize to you. He does love you Demi. It's obvious to me and everyone else in this hospital. I'll come check on him later and give you two some time to talk." I thank Pat, take a deep breath, and reenter the room.

    I take two small steps through the doorway not wanting to get too close to Simon in case he snaps again. He looks at me with the uttermost heartbreak. "Demi, please come to me." I want to but my feet won't move from their place on the floor. He looks away from me and begins to cry. "Demi, I'm so sorry about yelling at you. I promised you that I would never do that in case it brought back bad memories of Wilmer. Also, I'm ashamed that you saw me in such a weak state, hobbling with a walker like I'm 90 years old. I mean what if you want to be with someone both younger and better someday?" 

    I finally get the courage to bring myself over to him. "Simon I understand. I overreacted to you throwing water at me. You're going through a terrible time. You're allowed to fall a part if you want. After all, you're only human. We all are." He wipes away the remaining tears. "Thank you. I needed to hear that." I stroke his cheek. "I'm always going to be here Simon. There is no other man I want other than you. You're everything and more. There is no one better than you. If you can't see that, then I can see it for the both of us. Now I'm going to call the meal nurse Angela so you can get some supper okay?" He nods and I make the call. 

     The rest of the evening goes a bit better. Simon is pleased with the chicken egg lemon soup and baked potato he gets along with his strawberry lemonade. While Simon eats, I take some time to rest myself before I have to go home again to do a few things and come back again in the morning. 

Hoped that you guys liked this chapter! :) -Mary