Goodbye Graceful (Ronnie Radke love story, 3rd book in The Drug In Me series )

77. Coming Clean

**** I admit I was tempted to end the series after the last chapter, but I promised you 100 chapters and I don't like to break promises! Plus 100 is a nice number and it's my average number of chapters for this series so there we have it, 100 chapters total! Sorry for the wait, but I really hope that you enjoy ****

*Ryker*

Leah came into my room, grabbed my arm and dragged me to the living room, where Ryan was lounging on the couch like he fucking owned the place.

"Slob." He gave me a look, rolling his eyes and laughing until I smiled.

Leah pushed me down on the couch, giving me a glare to keep me from saying the sexual things running through my head at her forceful insistence.

"We need to talk." She sat on the coffee table, resting her elbows on her knees and leaning forward.

"Oh no. You found my condoms. It was for science I swear! It was a dare! I never used them, I'm a pure, religious child of God who has no need for those. I was keeping them for a friend-" Leah put a hand over my mouth to stop the spew of excuses coming from my mouth.

"No, but we'll have to talk about those later. This is serious." She bit her lip and pursed her lips, her eyes speaking business with their steely gaze.

"Oh no, what could it be? Did you find the folder of pictures of Jay Park's chest? That was for science too, and art. I was studying the human body-"

"We know you're seeing Ronnie." Ryan's outburst left me speechless.

Shit. They knew. The world is over, Tupac isn't dead, the moon landing was fake, Cruz is the Zodiac Killer, Ronnie doesn't hate me, what other conspiracy theories would they prove?

"Well, you all see him too." Ryan gave me an 'eat shit' look, and I grinned at him, shrugging.

"Come on, Ronnie's my best friend, Leah's your best friend, did you think you could hide it? You think it wasn't obvious when both of you stopped sulking like walking death and magically got better than you were?"

I smiled, thinking about that. Ronnie had been just as rundown as I was when we were fighting?

Ryan grinned at me, leaning on his knees. "I'm just surprised you managed to keep quiet about it for so long. Aren't you supposed to be screaming about how you love him unconditionally to the sky, and all that-"

"They were making out hardcore at Esha's party, you should have seen it, Ronnie's tongue was definitely down her throat, and she was all pressed up against the wood, it was like a clip from a drama." Leah smirked at me, "I'm surprised you can still talk with that mouth, dirty girl."

I scoffed at her, but let out a chuckle, licking my lips. It was pretty nice, wasn't it, Ronnie was completely focused on me in that moment, nobody else mattered.

Stupid Esha's sister had to ruin it, damn bitchacho.

"Okay, now come back from whatever sensual thought you're thinking." I raised my eyebrows up at Leah, who grinned innocently.

"When are you going to take it further? You know, be public again?" Leah looked curious, and Ryan looked unsure, as if he already knew my answer.

Again, we were never fully publicly together together, not as a couple.

I shrugged, looking down. "Whenever Ronnie wants."

Stuff had just started to look up, I didn't want it getting ruined now because I tried to think too far into the future and force this onto Ronnie.

"Well, don't you have a say, come on Ryker." Leah looked upset, and I smiled slightly.

"Of course I have a say, but I've already said yes. It's just up to Ronnie now. He has to want it too."

"Well, Ryan, get on that then." Leah looked at Ryan expectantly, and I laughed at the two of them.

"Hey, why do I have to-"

"You're his friend! But you're on our side aren't you now?!"

"I'm on both of their sides! Nobody can force Ronnie into anything, don't you know that by now."

Ryan looked over at me, furrowing his eyebrows before smirking.

"Except maybe Ryker. She's had him wrapped around her finger since day one." Ryan winked at me, and I shook my head.

"That's likely. No way." I knew it wasn't true but I grinned a little at the thought of having more influence on Ronnie than anyone else.

I wonder if that could be true one day, maybe....

It's already that way for me. Ronnie could ask me to do anything and I'd almost always do it for him. I'd do nearly anything for him.

So this is what love is? This is what it is to love someone, to be willing to do anything for you.

My thoughts were interrupted by loud knocks on the door.

I got up quickly, almost running to the door.

Maybe it's Ronnie -

Nope.

Luna and Esha came in quickly, grabbing my arms and jumping up and down, grinning.

Luna saw Ryan and she tsked, grabbing his elbow and pulling him to the door.

"Wait, I wasn't done-"

"No! Girls night. No external phallic organs allowed" Luna said slowly before shutting the door in his face.

"I'll just, call you later." We heard Ryan speak through the door before he walked away.

Leah looked surprised before she laughed, clapping her hands and waving Luna over.

"I haven't had a girls night in forever, someone make popcorn, someone get the hot chocolate, somebody get the candy, I'll get the movies!" I hadn't seen Leah so excited about being around people in forever.

"First, we have the gossip, and it needs to be said." Luna smirked and they all turned to me.

I shifted in my seat, looking away awkwardly.

"YOU AND RONNIE ARE BACK TOGETHER IT'S CANON IT'S REVIVED-" Luna was screaming her head off, and Esha actually jumped in surprise when she spoke.

"Woah, slow down. It's not like we're getting married, it's baby steps okay-"

"OH MY GOD YOU'RE GETTING MARRIED-" Esha covered Luna's mouth before she could break our eardrums, grimacing at her.

"No, calm down, we just kissed-"

"Oh, it was a lot more than just kissing, that had to be at least tongue action and some minor groping-" I glared at Esha to silence her, forming my lips into a pout.

"Okay, okay, the more important thing is that you guys talked. What did he say on the way home?"

They all looked at me curiously, eyes wide and lips parted in impatience.

I smiled, remembering all that he had said.

He payed for my rehab.

He checked up on me in secret.

He loves me.

"We just talked."