Goodbye Graceful (Ronnie Radke love story, 3rd book in The Drug In Me series )

15. Dragging Limp Bodies In Blue Shoes Across Really Long Hallways

**** I feel kind of hilarious because of the title xD Dragging Limp Bodies In Blue Shoes Across Really Long Hallways. It's a play on a song title, I wanna see if anyone knows it ;)

Ok so it's not that good, fine....

But I'm fuNNY OKAY GUYS IM FUNNY DAMNIT

As for the Rynnie ship and the new Rynnie moments, give it time, you know how Ronnie can hold a hella long grudge. I'm working on it hehe, don't fret, the Rynnie ship will sail once again, along with another budding one, hmmm hmm who could it be? ;) ****

I got released on Monday, and it was now Friday morning. It still felt weird to not wake up to crisp sheets and strict routines, and I admit I was taking advantage of the lack of routine and mostly bumming around.

I had to get a job, but so far Leah and I have been napping mostly. It's her fault, I mean she got such a nice bed, a nice bed that gets lonely by itself. I'm just being nice, keeping it company....

It just felt good to be doing nothing after months of doing everything. Leah turned the office room into a weight room, so when I'm not sleeping I'm working out, trying to get back to a healthy, strong body.

I had a whole new outlook on life, and I was planning on taking advantage of my time to make good what I had messed up.

I had sent a letter to Diablo, apologizing for leaving without telling him. He was a piece of shit, but it was more for me than for him.

I think I'm supposed to let go, and I'm trying, but it's damn hard. I'm not ready to forgive my family, and I'm not ready to be mushy-mushy with anyone besides my girls.

It was hard, but I had to work at it, this was a part of getting better.

I was sober and clean, I was telling people how I felt finally, and I was working at letting go of things. This was how I would get better.

The biggest person I had to apologize to was Ronnie, if he ever gave me the chance.....

I was laying in bed thinking about it when Leah got up and rolled out of bed, leaving me in the warm covers, wide awake now.

"Damn it Leah" I groaned, hiding my head in the pillows. I didn't want to get up, I just wanted to sleep, sleep forever.....

It was no use, I couldn't sleep with her up. I rolled off the bed and lay on the ground, groaning loudly, waiting for her to come back in the room, either to go back to sleep or to fuss at me for complaining so loudly.

She came in and kicked my leg gently, then wedging her foot under my stomach and pushing her toes up so it wasn't comfortable.

I groaned and rolled onto my back, keeping my eyes forced shut.

"Come on Ryker, Luna and Echo will be here any minute and we have to be ready" Leah said, and I grumbled.

"I don't wanna" I complained, my voice high, weedy and annoying.

"Ryker get your ass up, you're being a whiny little shit" she said, and I huffed.

"Fine. Carry me" I commanded, holding my arms out for her. She was tough, but she was small, and I was good head taller than her, so I doubt she could actually carry me all the way down the stairs and to the car.

"Fine, get dressed" she said, throwing clothes at me.

I kept my eyes closed and wriggled out of my pajama top, then wriggled into the black skinny jeans, which was harder than I expected.

I managed to get the bra on after many fails, and I pulled the shirt over my head. I slid my feet into blue vans, then let my head fall back, exhausted.

I huffed, reaching blindly above me to the bedside table where my wristbands and gloves were. I pulled them on and then I sighed.

"There" I said, holding my arms out again.

"You're impossible" Leah scoffed, and I could practically hear the eye-roll in her voice.

I shrugged, still not opening my eyes, and she groaned and grabbed my hands, tugging and pulling.

She managed to drag me out of the room and then dropped my hands, leaning against the wall, breathing heavily.

She was only 5'1, I guess it was kind of cruel to have her carry me, I would wear her out....

Eh, she can handle it.

"I'm tired. Soooooo tirrrreeeedd" I groaned for effect, and she grumbled, scoffing.

"Damnit Ryker" she said, and I opened my eyes a crack just to see what she looked like.

She was bent over, her legs spread out, her back hunched. She was pushing off her feet to pull me. I started laughing, I couldn't help it, she looked so funny, huffing and blowing hair out of her face as she strained to pull me.

"I give up. I hate you" she said, glaring at me and stomping away.

"Awww Beauty, love you too!" I yelled after her.

There was the click of the door opening, and then Echo and Luna were standing over me with raised eyebrows while Leah crossed her arms and pointed at me with an accusing finger.

"I'm so tired...." I groaned, holding my arms up.

"Hell no" Luna said, shaking her head.

"Aww, I've carried every single one of you, and Luna and Leah, I've carried you so many times. Just drag me" I complained, jutting my bottom lip out in an attempt at a cute pout.

"Drag me in a blue bag up a really long hill!" I yelled, and then I wished I hadn't. It reminded me of Ronnie, and it was still too soon. It's always gonna be too soon.

Three synchronized sighs later and I was being carried. Luna was holding my legs and Leah and Echo were carrying my arms. They were stumbling around, and Echo opened the door to let all of us out.

They had to squeeze together to get me out of the room.

They all looked funny, hunched over and holding me up, barely off the ground.

So there they were, carrying me down the hallway, and there I was, laughing my head off. No wonder the neighbors opened their doors and gave us weird looks.

We got to the elevator and they dropped me, breathing deeply and glaring at me.

Oh well, I got here didn't I? I grinned at them and lay still, humming quietly.

When the elevator got there, they dragged and shoved and pushed until I was in the elevator and then they stepped over me, sighing. I could feel their glares.

I yawned and jumped up, grinning. "Ahh man, what a beautiful day, I'm so energized and so totally awake-!" I declared.

They cut me off with 3 simultaneous punches.

"Owww" I whined, shrinking away from them.

They grinned at me and shook their heads.

"Love you too" Leah said in a high voice, mimicking me earlier.

I couldn't help but laugh, and then all glares went away.

Leah jumped on my back as the elevator stopped, and then I carried her outside, Luna and Echo leading us to their car.