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The Silence

It’s the silence that’s unbearable

That’s why I blast the music

Fill my movements with noise

The silence makes me itchy

And gives me this frustrating feeling of

Angst

Almost anger

I don’t know why

All I know is that everyday

I crush the silence

With the blaring sounds

Loud, white noise filling my ears

And make it go away

I cherish the ringing in my ears

And the tremors of the bass

Running up my arms

In the form of goosebumps

Anything

To get rid of

The Silence

They say

To listen to the silence

And there are the times

When the goosebumps come during the silence

But never in my house

The silence is unbearable here

Because it is not God’s silence that I hear

It is the silence of disappointment and anger

Making my thoughts cloudy

And incomprehensible

So here in my room

The silence threatens to suffocate me

And stay in my head

Forever