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Chapter 35 - Lonely Hearts Club

Chapter Thirty Five | Lonely Hearts Club
Axel Damn Saval's Point of View
WRONG GRAMMAR ALERT
[043020]- New Book Cover after 5 Years

I woke up with an empty stomach, and when I got out of bed. I looked at the scattered things around the room, clothes in a heap on the floor and the mess I made and the broken picture frames. I haven't eaten dinner and lunch yesterday, and right now? My stomach's grumbling.

I don't even know how to cook. Jin used to cook for me every morning and I don't even know where he is. I tried contacting him, but he can't be reached. I know it's my fault for letting go of him, for hurting him. For saying Immature the word he is weak of.

The moment I went home here, I thought things will be okay. But I was wrong, for he never returned home and it's been three days already. I have no fucking idea where the hell he is.I don't know where Jin is.

And now? I realised, I am empty without him. Without Jin. But, how can I love him? Without loving Theo? I can't escape the past, it's already tying me down. Making me invulnerable towards Jin's feelings for me. I know he had done a lot of sacrifices for me, but I just can't stop loving Theo. Because he used to be my past – and I can't escape it.

I directly went to the refrigerator to search for something to eat, there was nothing inside except for a jar of water. I have no choice but to drink it, I scratched my nape as I searched for my phone inside my jacket, I'll try once again to call Jin. If ever he'll answer the call, I'd say sorry once again. All over again.

I want him to go back.

I missed him so much, so much that it hurts my ego.

"Shit." I cursed, when I can't find my phone. "Nasaan na ba 'yon?!" Sabi ko sa sarili ko. Sinipa ko ang couch. "PotangEna."

Napaupo ako sa couch, I feel so hopeless. My, how lonely my heart is. Napasabunot ako ng buhok ko, hindi ko alam ang gagawin para na akong ewan kasi nagwawala ako sa ibabaw ng upuan. I want to kill myself for losing someone, someone who never left me. Someone who knew me too well. Ang taong nagbigay ng lahat para lang mapasaya ako.

And now? Nagsisisi ako.

Kung hindi ko lang sana nakita si Theo, kung hindi lang sana. Sana masaya na ako sa isa.

"Good Morning." Bati ko sa kaniya, the moment he woke up in my bed. I carefully caressed his precious face. Shit. This is so gay.

I don't know why, but I smiled when I saw him open his eyes. God, how I love Jin.

Damn.

"Nagpadala na ako ng breakfast sa kwarto. Gising ka na."  Sabi ko dito. Kinusot nito ang mata niya, which made me laugh. He's so cute. Geez. Umupo si Jin sa higaan ko.

"Anong tinatawa mo?" He looks cute in that long sleeve of mine.

"Wala kang brief." I chuckled. "Ang liit."

"Gago ka Damn! Ang bastos mo!" I pulled him close to me and hugged him tightly.

"Nakita ko lang eh. Ano ka ba?" I kissed him in the neck.

"Tama na nga Damn." Naramdaman kong tinapik niya ako sa mukha. My handsome face!

"Asus, nakita ko na nga 'yan noon pa eh. Pakipot ka pa ngayon." I licked his right ear. Tinapik-tapik niya ako.

Asus, pakipot si Jin. Hindi niya alam na nasa lap ko na siya. Hahaha.  I held him by the waist tightly.

Hindi ko alam pero nakita kong napangisi si Jin sa akin, of course ganun din ako. We were already inches apart. And I was shocked when he made the first move to lick my lips and kiss me hard, I didn't react instead I chuckled and sucked his lips. We were actually making out again.

I realised I am already crying, hands on top of my head. Looking all hopeless like a coward man I don't want to be. Hindi ako ganitong klaseng tao. But why am I acting like this? Na parang kawalan si Jin sa akin. Kung sa tutuusin madaming mga babae diyan eh, but why Jin?

Why?

Maybe because I never loved like this. He was the only one I loved seriously.

Suddenly, I heard a doorbell.

Jin Revamonte's Point of View

"Are you sure Lolo?" Tanong ko kay Lolo. Gusto niya kasing pumunta sa Apartment ko. Gusto niyang tingnan kung nadun pa si Damn. Gusto niya itong kausapin, just to clear things out.

"Oo naman." Sabi nito sa akin, right now nasa labas na kami ng apartment ko. "We should explain everything to him." Dagdag pa nito.

Lolo started ringing the doorbell. Kami naman ni Tito ay nakatayo lang sa tabi nito. Biglang may nagbukas ng pintuan, nabigla kaming tatlo.

Si Theo.

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Author's Note

Hey guys. Honestly for the past few months, I have been doing a lot of things already and I think no one appreciates me here lately. I have been painting, drawing, making art and making music, doing what I know I love the most and it was frustrating and depressing knowing no one understands what you do and appreciate it. That's why I decided to take a break from them and I went back to writing here pero ayun ganun parin ang nangyayari. I still get frustrated and underappreciated. Kasi feeling ko im out of place already. Then what should I do?

Im sorry I have been writing a lot of stories lately kasi alam ko its an escape for me to finally put all the tragedies i encountered for the pst three years of not being active here, I have no one to talk to about things like this, kasi I prefer to distance myself kasi natatakot ako majudge even in writing. I just don't really think na I could get out of this misery. Kasi nakakapagod na.

Im sorry 3 years made me very sensitive.