Homecoming Pt. 1

Marcus 76

One thing I hated about Texas was the weather, I had just left Khalil's house and it had started raining out of nowhere and it got worse and worse as I drove. As I was driving I thought more and more about Khalil god I loved him so much, I loved him to the point that I was scared to be with him. I know it sounds weird but it was true Khalil had been nothing short of perfect, even after I turned down his marriage proposal he still was the perfect boyfriend and a part of me was scared that he was too perfect, I started trying to find flaws in an otherwise flawless person. Against my will I kept coming up with 'what if' scenarios and I started to push way instead of talking to him about it, I know it sounded so stupid but I was really afraid of something happening to shatter this perfect image of Khalil I had painted in my head the main thing being something I had done. As I pulled up to my house I noticed Khalil's car already in the driveway and Khalil sitting on the porch getting soaked, I wanted to keep driving but I was tired of running from this issue I had to put these fears to rest or I'd lose him for good.

"What are you doing sitting out in the rain?" I asked as I walked up to him. Khalil didn't say anything as I tried to put the key in the lock before I could open the door Khalil grabbed my arm.

"Marcus are you cheating on me?" Khalil asked I could see the pain, the worry, and the fear in his eyes that alone broke my heart.

"Khalil I'm not cheating on you....." I said quietly.

"When what is it Marcus? It's like one second we're good and everything is perfect and then the next you're pulling away from me. I want to fix whatever it is that's going on with us but I can't do that if I don't know what's wrong." Khalil said looking into my eyes.

"Alright let's go inside because I'm getting soaked and I'm not trying to be sick." I said trying for the door again, but Khalil stopped me.

"Nah... we need to stay out here because if we go in this house I'm going to end up fucking you right there on the floor and we really don't need that right now. We need to fix us." Khalil said as I let my eyes roam over his body, his white shirt clung to his muscular frame as if it was painted on and his basketball shorts showed the outline on his semi-hard dick perfectly, I knew he was right we need to talk and sex would just complicate things right now.

"Okay so what do you wanna talk about." I said trying to avoid his eyes.

"Look at me Marcus, what's going with you..... with us?" Khalil asked.

"I don't wanna lose you Khalil." I aid fighting back tears.

"Marcus.... baby I'm not going anywhere. Just talk to me why do you keep pulling away from me? I don't wanna lose you either but I'm starting to think you don't wanna be in this relationship anymore." Khalil said sadly.

"I do I just feel like....." I started to say but got choked up.

"Like what Marcus talk to me." Khalil said quietly.

"Khalil ever since you proposed and I said no, I've been worried that I did something to push you away. There are a lot of guys and girls out there that would love to be with you, what if you meet one of them while your traveling and slip up?" I said.

"Baby I don't want anyone else, all the people I've been with none of them even close to what I feel when I'm with you. I can't lie and say it didn't hurt me when you said no, but I get why you did and I have to respect your decision and I have to hope that one day you'll decide to wear my ring." Khalil said.

"What if I'm never ready?" I said.

"Then we'll just be together for the rest of our lives. Marcus truth be told I'm not sure I'm ready to get married either, I don't think anyone is ever 100% sure but what I am sure of is that I wanna spend the rest of my life with you." Khalil said.

"But what if..." I started to say but Khalil cut me off.

"What if the moon was a disco ball? Marcus we can play the what if game all night, but it won't get us anywhere. I love you that's it..... there is no what if, I want to be with you and I'm not going anywhere as long as you want me to stay. So quit looking for trouble where there is none. You love me right?" Khalil asked.

"Yes of course I do." I said.

"And you want us to be together right?" He asked.

"Yes I do." I said.

"So quit worrying so damn much. I love you and you love me that's it, just go with the flow and you'll see everything is going to be fine. Now let's go inside, so I can shower, I gotta go get my phone out the car first." Khalil said kissing me. "Trust me Marcus I'm here for the long run as long as you are." He said as we walked in the house Khalil wasted no time stripping down and walking upstairs and I couldn't help but look at his muscular back walk up the stairs with his phone in hand. As soon as I couldn't see him anymore I pulled my phone out and called Tonya.

"Hey what's up?" Tonya said.

"Tonya, Khalil asked me to marry him and......" I tried to say but her loud ass cut me off.

"OH MY GOD MARCUS WHEN'S THE WEDDING, WHAT HAPPENED, WHEN, OH GOD WE HAVE SO MUCH TO PLAN!!!" She yelled.

"Okay first this happened a few weeks ago and I....." Once again she cut me off.

"A FEW WEEKS?! MARCUS I SHOULD FLY DOWN THERE AND BEAT YOUR ASS WHY AM I JUST NOW HEARING ABOUT THIS?!" She yelled. 

"BECAUSE I...... I said no." I said quietly. For the longest time she was quiet. "Tonya?" I said.

"Are you fucking kidding me? Marcus that man loves you and now you've probably messed things up for good, he's probably heartbroken right now." She said quietly.

"That's the thing Tonya he hasn't change at all and now that I look back.... I'm really starting to regret it. I love Khalil.... I fucking love him to death and now I realize that I do wanna marry him." I said as a few tears fell down my face.

"Marcus I love you I really do but you are quite possibly the dumbest person I've ever met. Do you know why I agreed to marry Marsean? Besides the fact that I promised myself when I was younger that he was going to be my babies daddy and the fact that he has benefits I knew that I would never love someone more than I loved Marsean. I'm going to ask you one question and if the answer is no then you better marry that man. Can you see yourself with anyone else?" She asked, I didn't even have to think about it.

"No." And with that she hung up, I already knew what I had to do, I walked to my room and opened the drawer and grabbed the box, the same box I looked at everyday since Khalil left it with me.

"What are you doing?" Khalil said from behind me, I turned and faced him as he wrapped a towel around his waist. Khalil looked at the box in my hand and then back at me. "Marcus?"

"Khalil let's do it..... I wanna marry you." I said quietly. Khalil walked over to me and took the box from me.

"Marcus..... I don't want you to do this if you're not ready." Khalil said.

"I just talked to Tonya..... and she made me realize that I should've never said no in the first place. I want to be with you forever Khalil so..... I'm ready." I said, Khalil smiled and dropped to his knee.

"Marcus Riley will you...." Before he could finish his phone started ringing. "Don't move." He said standing up. "Dev now is not really a good tim...... are you sure, alright I'll be there soon." Khalil said hanging up, his face was completely blank.

"Khalil is everything alright?" I asked.

"Umm...... no Delilah..... my mom she, she umm she just died." Khalil said quietly.