Homecoming Pt. 1

Nico 60

As the sounds of Devin's approaching footsteps got closer my heart started to beat faster, I knew Devin better than anyone and I knew he was going to probably go off, I also knew we would do everything in his power to avoid talking to me. But I wouldn't let him leave not until I had a chance to explain myself, even if he tried to leave I knew Cam and Legacy weren't going to let him out until I gave them the okay. He was close now so close I could hear him grumbling something about Cam and Legacy. I had to do this carefully because I didn't want to startle him, I sat in the corner of the room watching him walk to Khalil's wine cellar, which was more like a liquor store than anything, Devin reached for the door and stop.

"I know you're down here Nico, I smelled your cologne at the top of the stairs." He said turning around. I could hear the anger in his voice but also the same misery I've been feeling these last couple weeks. I stood and walked cautiously over to him, we stood staring at each other, I knew that I had to be the first to speak.

"Devin I'm......" But Devin cut me off before I could finish.

"I fucked Will." He said looking in my eyes and I felt like I had been punched in the chest. Devin never took his eye off me as he said it. "You see how easy it was for me to tell you Nico, and I didn't tell you to hurt you either I told you because I never kept anything from you and I've always been up front with you Nico never keeping secrets. So why couldn't you tell me about Iman?" Devin asked.

"Devin you never kept secrets from me because I was your secret, who else were going to tell all the things you told me your deepest fears and your greatest hopes, who else could you talk to about you being gay? Staci? Your foster parents? Will? No it was me and at times I felt like you didn't appreciate me, I felt like you were embarrassed by me, like I was something to be hid away and only brought out when you needed someone to talk to or you were horny." I said looking  him in the eyes.

"And that's where Iman came in, he didn't try to hide who he was and he made me feel like I could be myself when I was with him I didn't feel like I was secret whenever we hung out I didn't have to sneak in and out of his house like a damn criminal. So yeah I fucked up and told Iman things about you because I thought he was a friend and yeah we fucked a few times but so what we weren't in a relationship then I was free to do what I wanted." I said.

"So why couldn't you tell me, why couldn't you come to me like 'Devin I'm fucking with this dude' instead of keeping it secret?" Devin asked his anger starting to show.

"Because I know you Devin you're a jealous dude, that's just who you are how many fights have you got into because so dude was looking at Staci the wrong way? I knew your feelings for me were deeper then the feeling you had for Staci and I didn't want you exploding like you always do." I said.

"You know me Nico then you know that I would've been pissed but we would've work through it. I fucking love you like crazy but you betrayed my trust by keeping that shyt from me." Devin said trying to calm himself down.

"How do you think Staci felt when she found out you were fucking with me the whole time ya'll were together?" I retorted.

"Man I don't care how Staci felt she was playing me like I was playing her so why do you keep bringing up her?" Devin asked rubbing his hands across his face.

"Because that was your girl! Even if ya'll were playing each other you were still with her, ya'll were still a couple and I was your side nigga looking stupid as fuck waiting for you to finally see I was the one for you." I said.

"And I told Nico that even though I was with her I wanted to be with you, so you shouldn't have been worried about who wanted to be with me. Every night I wasn't on the phone with her I was on the phone with you, every morning you were the first person I called not Staci. So I'm sorry for making you feel like a side nigga or whatever because you were way more than that you were my best friend." Devin said walking over to me and grabbing my hand.