Homecoming Pt. 1

Khalil 71

I didn't know how to describe how I felt, I wasn't angry or sad...... I was just numb. I wasn't expecting Marcus to say no hell I hadn't even crossed my mind, I felt like our relationship was so perfect that the only logical thing for us to do next was to get married. What more did I have to prove to him that he was it for me, I didn't even want to look at another person the fact that he said no made me wonder if I had did something wrong, I've constantly proved my love for him and now I wasn't sure. We were on the way back to the car when this dude called Marcus's name we turned around and came face to face with ol'boy we ran into in Columbus, Marcus grabbed my hand and that simple gesture reassured me if only for a second.

"What are you doing down here Qwanell?" Marcus asked moving closer to me, even though he had a polite smile on his face.

"I'm teaching a K9 Course at Lackland for the next few weeks, then I'm heading back home. I really wasn't expecting to run into you down here, what's up Khalil right?" Qwanell said looking at me.

"What's up." I said barely making eye contact.  I stood there for a few minutes while Marcus and Qwanell talked before deciding to leave. "Marcus baby I'm going to meet you back at the house." I said letting his hand go as I walked back to my car. Before I could get in my car Marcus grabbed my hand and stopped me, he looked in my eyes and I could tell he was trying to think of something to say. I pulled him into a kiss and gave him a forced smile. "I'll see you at home alright." I said getting in my car and pulled off. We got back to the house around the same time and we both tried to walk into the house at the same, things between us had got awkward it was like we were walking on eggshells I had to get some balance back into our relationship.

"Khalil...... Marcus....." We said each others name at the same time furthering the awkward situation. "You go first." I said looking at him.

"Baby I'm sorry....... I just feel like we're moving too fast, we've only been together a few months. I don't want you to feel like I don't love you because I do....... but I can't marry you if I don't bring anything to the table, that's why I want to wait until I finish school first so you don't feel like I'm not bringing anything to the marriage." Marcus said.

"Marcus I'm not asking you to get married today or next week, we could've just had a long engagement we could've waited a few years. I get that you wanna go back to school and I respect that but you could've said anything; let's wait, I want a long engagement, hell let me think about it is better than no...... anything would've been better than no Marcus. And how are you not bringing anything to the table all these sponsorship I have now is because you made made them happen, you make me better. And what's up with you thinking we're moving too fast we've known each other since we were kids, it's not like I'm a someone you just met." I said sadly.

"Khalil I....... I'm sorry, I didn't really want to hurt you." Marcus said.

"I'm not hurt Marcus I'm confused what's the point of being in a relationship if the goal isn't to get married?" I asked.

"You want the truth Khalil I'll tell you....... let's say we get married and you get traded I'm I suppose to follow you? I'm afraid that if we get married then my dreams will have to be placed on hold to support you. I'm afraid of getting lost in this world of yours."

"AND I'M AFRAID OF LOSING YOU AGAIN!!!" I yelled. "I've told you Marcus, when I left you back in high school it was the biggest mistake of my life.... I don't want to want you to think I'm holding you back if we get married Marcus, marriage is suppose to be a partnership and I would never ask you to give up your dreams for me, I love you too much to do that. But you can't expect me to give up on my dream of one day marrying you." I said.

"Can I have some time to think about it some more?" Marcus asked. I started to respond but my phone started ringing and I almost didn't answer it but I figured it was Cam or Legacy to tell me about Devin, but it was Enzo. "What's up Zo?" I asked.