Fafr's Epic Random Book

To One of the Best People I Ever Knew

I don't want

You to be

Doing that

I know

I'm an obsessive

Control freak

But you do not

Deserve to be

Hurting yourself

You're an amazing person

And I love you

I try to remember the

Fun times we had

When she told me

About it

I felt like crying

I did

When I got home

And I'm so frustrated

Why would you

How could you

Why

I thought you were

Over it

And I thought

I could trust

You

I thought I was your

Best friend

I thought

You could tell me

Anything

I would never

Judge you

But I was wrong

Like you said

When I told you about mine

"If you cut

I cut."

I now have to follow that saying

Whether I like it

Or not

You're one

Of the best people

I know

You have so many quirks

And they're so much fun

I love hanging out with you

I will stay with you

Even when life goes to shit.

~ Fade

I found out today that my best friend had been self-harming today. She'd done it before but I had thought she'd gotten over it. No matter how much I bug her, she wouldn't tell me why. Because I "wouldn't understand." I think I fucking would. Just because I haven't been raped or abused by my parents doesn't mean I'm stupid. I'm feeling pointless because I thought she could tell me about anything that had happened to her.

I wasn't good enough, I guess.