Fafr's Epic Random Book

To Icee

Today was my second cousin's wedding and I had to dress up. This is one of the few times I will allow myself to be girly so you better enjoy it. Because tomorrow I'll be back in an oversized sweatshirt and pajama pants. (I do wear glasses but I don't like them and prefer not to be taken photos of with them.)

Icee-Loves-Tea recently wrote a...I don't even know what to call it. It describes how we met and what happened, and how we became friends. She shared her side of the story, and so I must return the favor and share my side.

I was on an app called Doodle Club. You may have heard it mentioned before. I had a great friend named Morotoxyn. His account kept glitching, and one day he just left. I'm not sure what happened to him, but he was a lot of fun to roleplay with.

It was the summer, and I had a lot of time on my hands because I wasn't involved with any clubs or organizations at the time. So I started looking for a new friend. I had followed Icee because I had seen her drawings and although I didn't know who or what they depicted, I thought they were pretty cool. I started to, dare I say stalk?, her page, and learned an OC of hers was named Don. He was, simply put, green.

I asked her to roleplay, and although it was slow going, I learned that I didn't always get my way with fictional couples.

Some of the people I was hanging out with were very, VERY different from Icee. For instance, if a boy and a girl talked, it was pretty much a confirmed ship. Stupid, yes. Immature, yes.

As you may know, Donovie was a confirmed ship. Although I was very unsupportive of it at the time, now I think it is an adorable ship. And after reading Don's backstory, I think it's wonderful that Vie makes Don happy. I was maybe, well, hoping that Jasper could do the same, but it's alright. It was a year ago, and I wasn't very mature. In some ways I'm still the same, but I've learned so much from that experience.

I met new people as well, and Fluttershy (Chase) and I made Cressimike, one of my major ships, out of the deal, although there was a lot of drama and...I'd rather not get into it. I was really broken and I am not exactly known for keeping my cool when I'm mad. I tend to say really rude things that hurt people I genuinely care about.

I feel like I was mostly the cause for all of the drama. Now, I might be able to say, "Sorry," and it would all be done. But back then I had to go and make a big deal about it.

Back to Icee. One thing I really respected about her is that we've never really fought. I mean this to be that usually she was the messenger when a friend wanted me to unblock her. And I have never blocked her from my profile. Never, that I can remember.

At one point, she had posted a picture of Fell, one of her older ocs. He was a really adorable boy, with grey eyes and dark hair. I thought he was just so cute, and I said so on the picture. Icee replied, asking if we should make it a ship. And we started role playing. It was a lot of fun. So, Felonade became our very first ship. (It's better than lemonade, it's Felonade!) It was kind of ironic. He was tall, shy and quiet. And then there's me, who's short, loud and bubbly. Yep, a match made in heaven.

I saw a picture of an OC she had named Kacy. Over time, I eventually confessed wanting to pair up Jasper with someone, namely him. Icee said that she had already coupled him with a distant friend that had left. This stopped me for a little bit, but eventually Kasper became a thing. The antisocial anthropopophobic girl and the perverted yet sweet guy were a ship.

But this did not mean the drama did not stop.

I was very angry, and this is one time I will say I had a right to be. Icee, nor Choco were involved. Liberty was mad at Dashie for saying something about Lib to me (honestly, I can't remember what), and Dashie replied, "I only say those things to keep Fade happy." It evolved into yet another DC Drama that I guess I was famous for.

Eventually I had had enough of DC and the pain it had caused me. I was harming myself and I wanted it to stop. So, well, I left. And I never came back, save for the time I was forced to find Dashie's Wattpad name, because she had evidently left her old account.

Icee was one of the few who promised to find me on Wattpad. And she actually kept her promise.

We started up a chat. We laughed together, made stupid jokes together, roleplayed together, and helped each other through absolute crappy times. Sometimes I think I am just a burden, and that I annoy her. Sometimes I think she doesn't really enjoy my company. Sometimes I think that she would rather be doing something else than talking to me.

The time is nearing for the one-year mark when Icee and I met. I'm not exactly sure when that day is, but sometime in July or August I will celebrate knowing the friend that changed my life for the better.

I will end this with lyrics to Skillet's Good To Be Alive. After all, I think it fits Icee and I well.

"When all you've got are broken dreams

Just need a second chance

Everything you wanna be

Is taken from your hands

We hold on to each other

All we have is all we need

Cause one way or another

We always make it, you and me

This life can almost kill you

When you're trying to survive

It's good to be here with you

And it's good to be alive

It's good to be alive

I was lost and I was gone

I was almost dead inside

You and me against the world

It's a beautiful night...

It's good to be alive."

Icee...

You've changed my life for the better. You're an awesome friend. You really are. You're so much fun to hang out with, and even though we don't get to talk every day, it doesn't stop me from appreciating you.

And on that Tuesday almost two weeks ago when you said you enjoy talking to me because no one at school does... I was still considering suicide. I thought leaving DC and excluding myself from the people that had hurt me would cure it. And it did, for a little while. But then the whole Caleb thing started up and I just couldn't stand it. When you told me that, it really made me think how you would feel if I left. I didn't want to be one of those jerks who left you because of their own problems that had absolutely nothing to do with you. I think you're an amazing person. I've never seen a picture of your face. I don't know your real name. But you've been a truly amazing friend.

I've grown to love each and every one of the characters you have (except Furius. I will always hate him). Scar, Don, Daniel, Fell, Kacy...they're all special in all of their ways. I can relate to all of them. Scar, for my bubbliness, Don, when I really do not want people around me, etc.

But I really dedicate this to her persona, Icee.