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Rant

(EDIT 7/2/16 I decided to leave this one because it actually kinda has some meaning to it. So yeah.)

OKAY.

I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF PEOPLE ALL LIKE "oh depression sucks you'll get over it have a fun life love yourself"

DEPRESSION IS A MENTAL DISEASE.

YOU CANNOT GET OVER IT IN TWO SECONDS. IT TAKES TIME.

DEPRESSION IS CAUSED OVER TIME AND IT TAKES TIME TO HEAL.

SOME PEOPLE NEVER DO GET OVER IT.

THEY ARE THE SUICIDE VICTIMS.

AND OTHERS NEVER GET OVER IT BUT PRETEND THEY DO, HIDING THEIR SCARS, FAKING A SMILE WHEN SOMEONE COMES BY BUT INSIDE THEY ARE DEAD ALREADY.

THEY DREAM OF WAYS TO KILL THEMSELVES. THIS IS TRUE. I HAVE DONE IT BEFORE.

I DO NOT WANT TO GET COMMENTS TELLING LIES ABOT HOW THEY CARE, ABOUT HOW THEY WANT ME TO FEEL BETTER.

I CAN LIE TO YOU. I CAN SAY I'VE GOTTEN OVER IT. I HAVE NOT.

CALEB SAID TO KASSIA ONE DAY, "WHY CAN'T YOU STOP CUTTING? SHE STOPPED!" AND I WANTED TO PUNCH HIM BECAUSE HE SAYS HE'S DEPRESSED BUT HE IS NOT, BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY IF HE WAS HE WOULD KNOW IT TAKES TIME. I HATED HIS USING ME AS AN EXAMPLE. I FIND IT VERY DISTURBING THAT HE WOULD SAY THAT.

I MAY NEVER GET OVER MY DEPRESSION. I DEFINITELY WON'T IF PEOPLE KEEP TELLING ME I WILL IN FIVE SECONDS.

IF YOU ARE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE, STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING. YOU SAY WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING AND WE'RE JUST CONFUSED HUMANS WHO NEED CONSOLATION AND THEN WE'LL BE BETTER. WE DEFINITELY FUCKING KNOW WHAT WE ARE DOING BECAUSE WE INTEND IT. YOU ARE THE CONFUSED ONE BECAUSE IT TAKES SOMETIMES YEARS FOR PEOPLE TO GET OVER IT.

AND IF YOU'RE A FELLOW PERSON SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION, I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING.

I WISH I HAD A ROOM THAT WAS COMPLETELY SOUNDPROOF SO I COULD SCREAM AT ALL THE IGNORANT PEOPLE THAT HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT WE'RE TALKING ABOUT.

HAVE A HORRIBLE DAY.