Shawn Mendes Imagines

Grand Piano

Italics- song lyrics
Bold- memories
Regular- her

Am I just a fool

Blinded and stupid for loving you.

Am I just a silly girl?

I was crying. A lot. I couldn't stop. Tears rolled in puddles down my pale sunken cheeks. My heart was too broken to shatter. It was just empty. Like it was black instead of red. I at the moment wanted to pull it out to figure out if maybe I was some mutation and really had a black heart. I held onto my pillow, like it was everything. But that wasn't true. 

He was everything. 

He is everything. 

But I wasn't everything in his world. 

I wasn't even part

Wrapped up in lies

And foolish jewels 

He used to be so nice. 

Always telling me he loved me and making me feel good.

"Shawn really I am not cute."

"Why would you think so lowly about yourself when I think so highly about you?"

I blushed. 

"Really?"

"Yeah of course." 

Too bad they were lies Shawn. That's what you said at least. Right? That we were just a lie.

"I love you Y/N"

"I love you too. Never leave me please."

"Of course babygirl of course."

Of course. Thats what you always said. I guess maybe like how you were always lying. Because you didnt love me either.

People are saying

That you have been playing my heart

Like a grand piano

I didn't believe anyone. When they said that I was making a mistake being with you.

I defended you Shawn.

I defended your lies. And your heartbreaking tricks. And your insults and kisses with no emotions that I had.

I was too naive to relaize you weren't texting your friends.

Or maybe friends.

With a little more devious intentions.

"Who are you texting babe?"

"Oh just Cameron."

I didn't know Cameron meant Lilly in a different language.

But hey maybe I am fluent in more than one language.

I mean I understood your crap lies.

But I also fell for them.

"Oh what about?"

"It's guy things Y/N back off."

Guy things.

I dug my nails into my soft skin. Feeling the skin cells slowly ripping apart from each other. Then the blood was oozing barely from where my sharp nails pushed into my skin.

I choked a sob, heart wrenching whines left my mouth. Wishing it would stop. Wishing he would stop getting in my head. Wishing he would be gone. Wishing I was gone.