Shawn Mendes Imagines

You Said You'd Grow Old With Me

As I sat in the cafe, stirring my coffee with the little red straw, my head was resting on my other palm. I had my eyes set on the cream. Slowly fading into the brown liquid.

When I heard the door open, I didn't expect you to walk in.

I was frozen.

My bones ice. So were my eyes. I couldn't look away. My heart stopped.

You left four years ago.

I remember that day. More than anything.

We sat on the curb outside the ice cream shop, watching the kids play soccer across the street. I was eating my favorite kind, strawberry shortcake. You did too. Only cause I accidentally ordered two. It was my favorite ice cream shop. It was my favorite curb. Because we always sat there on Wednesdays. The seven year old kids across the street would randomly kick the ball around. And we would laugh when the kids would miss. But most parents put their kids in sports at that age just to keep them busy. So we didn't judge them.

You turned to me randomly and said "I'm moving"

I chuckled. I didn't believe you.

"Funny Mendes."

"Y/N. I'm being serious. I leave tonight. A flight at 7."

I turned this time. I looked at your face. I then realized.

You were completely serious.

"What do you mean, moving?" I asked. My voice was already shot. My chest hardened.

"I am moving across the country."

"Why? Aren't you happy here?" I set my cone down. I crossed my legs and faced him.

"I am leaving this place so I can follow my dreams."

"What about us. I thought you and I were your dreams," I croaked. My heart slowly breaking.

"I'm sorry Y/N. I love you to death. But the distance. It won't work."

"Why now? Why didn't you bother warning me!" I exclaimed, standing. You stood with me.

"I've been crying myself to sleep this past nights I-"

"That doesn't give you the right to just pick up and leave me!" I yelled. I threw my arms in the air. I was barely breathing. And they were short forced breaths. My head was starting to pound.

"Look I am sorry!" You yelled back. At this point the little kids started to look.

"I just want you to be happy," I said quietly. I didn't mean it exactly. I wanted him to be happy with me.

"Can we please be friends?"

"Yeah. For sure," I said. I was barely audible. I stared at the ground. I couldn't look at you. "Uh I should go," I grabbed my bag and went to start walking.

You stopped me.

"I am sorry Y/N."

I didn't look at you still.

"Me too."

We didn't talk again. I told the landlord of the house we were going to buy that something came up. I told my boss that I got a new job offer. I moved to my mom's for a while. I didn't eat, sleep, or live for a while. Overtime I slowly got back up. But all of the plans we had were destroyed. All the big dreams and vacations.

You made me hate my favorite​ spot. You made me hate ice cream and soccer. You made me hate long car rides and chick flicks. You made me hate all the songs we said were our songs. You made me hate rainy days and sledding. You made me hate extra cheesy goldfish that you used to try to shoot into my mouth. You made me hate myself.

I still do.

You walked up.

"Y/N."

I didn't say anything. I couldn't.

"Long time no see," He smiled barely.

"What are you doing here." I said, more as a statement than anything. A statement of not wanting his presence anywhere near me.

"I was visiting. How have you been?" You asked, sitting down.

"I didn't say to sit." I kept my face strict. You sighed. You still looked as good as you did when we young and naive. You probably even looked better.

"I get it Y/N."

"We haven't talked in years. What do you want now?"

"I just wanted to talk. To catch up."

"Why would you care?"

"I used to spend everyday with you Y/N," You frowned.

"And then randomly one day you left. And got a new girlfriend. And never talked to me again. Deleted me from your social media. Yeah you did use to spend everyday with me. What happened to that huh?" I was grinning that lite straw so hard its shape was crushed.

"I'm sorry."

"You said you'd grow old with me. What happened to those Shawn?"

"I decided to change my life."

"What was so wrong with me being in it?" I mumbled.

"Nothing. You were great. I just wanted a fresh start. And I could never have a real fresh start if I didn't leave everything."

"So unexpectedly? We talked constantly and you didn't even bother to give a few weeks advance?" I was more angry now. My fist clenched on the table.

"I became a singer." I didn't respond. "I wrote a lot of my songs about you."

"Why did you came to me last before the airport?" I asked abruptly.

"Because you mattered to me most. And that was my favorite spot. Do they still play soccer there?" He asked with a crack of a smile. I shut him down.

"I wouldn't know. I haven't been there since."

"But it was our favorite place."

"Well when your heart gets smashed there, you learn to except chocolate ice cream from the grocery store."

"Maybe we can go see if they still play. It is even Wednesday I think right?"

"Why would I do that?"

"Well I am staying here a few weeks. And I don't have anything else to do on Wednesdays."

"You ruined me. You don't deserve a second chance."

"Trust me I know I don't. But we haven't talked in a while. And we could catch up a lot over ice cream."

"You said forever. You promised me Shawn. Multiple times. We had our whole lives planned. I did everything based on you. And you think you can leave and come back whenever?"

"I know I can't. But can you let me try. I don't even know most of this town anymore."

I looked at my shoes.

Then at him.

He had an expression.

The same one he always had when he was begging.

"Fine. But only thirty minutes."

A/N

I know it has been a while. Like I haven't uploaded since last year while.

I am sorry. I didn't die.

I took a break.

I had to. Life has a way of making it seem like the only way to fix something is to run away from it.

And I'm sorry.

Some major things happened to me. That made me just give up on commitment. One of them was this and I am sorry that I did. Cause I love writing. And I'm back.

I hope you enjoyed! Thank you for 300k. It means the world to me even if I have been inactive. Bye