Luhan's POV
"Chain." Mahinang sambit ko sa pangalan nya pagkapasok ko sa room nya. Agad syang lumingon sa'kin at ngumiti. Ngumiti rin ako. "Luhan." Masayang bati nya sa'kin.
Lumapit ako at inilapag sa side table yung binili kong mga prutas. Biglang hinila ni Chain yung braso ko at niyakap ako. Napatingin agad ako kay Baekhyun na nakatayo lang malapit sa pinto.
Tumango at ngumiti sya sa'kin. Pero yung ngiti nyang alam kong pilit lang, at alam ko rin nasasaktan sya. "Na-miss kita, Luhan. Buti bumalik ka." Sabi ni Chain pagka-kalas nya sa yakap. Tinignan ko yung mukha nya, sobrang saya nya talaga. Those smiles I've seen when she's still obesessed with me.
Dahan dahan ko namang tinanggal yung kamay nyang nakahawak sa braso ko. Napatingin sya sa'kin ng gawin ko yun at napansin kong naluluha sya. "Teka, bakit? Fiance kita diba? Just let me hold you!" At nagsimula na syang umiyak at magwala. Wait, what? Fiance? Dumating naman yung mga nurse at sinaksakan sya ng pampakalma. After a few minutes, she's now asleep.
Lumingon ako kay Baekhyun na nakaupo lang sa sofa. I sat beside him. "I'm sorry, Baek." Mahinang sabi ko at tinapik yung balikat nya. He looked at me with an obvious pain in his eyes pero agad din syang umiling. "Don't be sorry, hyung. Ako nga yung dapat mag-sorry sa'yo e. I'm giving you such responsibilities like this."
It just happened na pauwi na kami galing sa SME, but Baekhyun asked me to come with him. May gusto daw makakita sa'kin, and I didn't expect it's Chain.
"What happened?" Tanong ko at tumingin ako kay Chain na mahimbing na natutulog. "Remember five years ago? When all of us were arguing at Suho hyung's place, she blamed herself so bad. She ran away without anyone of us noticing. Naaksidente sya, hyung. Nabundol sya ng bus habang tumatakbo. Perhaps, her sight was vague because of unstoppable tears coming from her eyes. It affected her brain at na-comatose sya. Hinintay ko syang magising this past five years."
He said in a very low and cracking voice. Para syang iiyak anytime. "Sorry, Baekhyun. This is my fault, kung hindi lang ako gago edi sana-"
"Hyung, stop blaming yourself. It's already done."
"It's done yet it left us a mark. I just can't forgive myself from that." namilog ang kamao ko sa inis ko sa sarili ko. If I just thought straight that time, everyone's future wouldn't be like this.
"Kung gusto mong makabawi kay Chain, please, stay by her side." Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi ni Baekhyun. "What?! She doesn't love me anymore, right? Ikaw, ikaw na yung mahal nya ngayon, Baekhyun. I have nothing to do with her-"
"If she loves me then why does she look for you?"
Silence arouse inside the hospital room. Napatitig ako sa mukha ni Baekhyun when I see the very visible pain in his eyes, na agad ding sinundan ng mga luha. That guilt. The guilt I felt when Chain confessed on me when we were still a trainee. The guilt when she rejected Baekhyun because of me. The guilt when I told Baek that I was engaged to the girl he loves the most. That guilt is hunting me again now.
"Painful? Yes." Baek broke the silence and wiped his own tears before starting to talk again. "She woke up two days ago. At alam mo kung anong pinaka-una nyang ginawa pagdilat nya? She looked for you, hyung. She kept screaming out your name. Ang sakit na kahit ako na yung nasa harap nya, naghahanap pa sya ng iba."
He paused at huminga ng malalim. "I asked her doctor about her condition. He said that the accident really affected some part of her brain. She has amnesia, and the only memory she got right now," tumingin muna sya sa'kin at nakita kong namumula na yung mata at ilong nya dahil sa kakaiyak.
"Is when she's still inlove with you, Luhan hyung."
Natigilan ako. Dammit, bakit? Bakit kailangan kong saktan si Baekhyun ng ganito? "I'm so sorry, Baekhyun-"
"If you're really sorry, you'll do a favor for me then?" kinuha nya yung panyo sa bulsa nya at pinunasan yung luha nya. "Anything for you to ease the pain."
"Pretend that you're inlove with her."
"What?! Baekhyun, I said to ease your pain, not to hurt you more. Ano bang nasa isip mo-"
"Hyung, hindi pa stable yung lagay nya. Pwedeng lumala yung condition nya anytime. Sabi ng doktor, mas mapapabilis yung paggaling nya kung kasama nya yung mga taong mahal nya. Ikaw lang yung mahal nya ngayon."
Nangunot yung noo ko. "I just can't. Not now when I see Nian again. I want to fix everything between the two of us, you know that. And you also know how much I love her. At isa pa, ayaw kitang saktan Baekhyun, that kind of favor is your suicide."
"If I need to suicide just to let her live, I will." kinagat nya yung labi nya para hindi sya humagulgol. "Besides, I said, pretend. You don't need to be genuinely inlove with her. Alagaan mo lang sya hanggang gumaling sya at bumalik yung mga alaala nya. Leaving her now is not a good idea, hyung. She might hurt herself when she realizes that you're not around."
hinawakan nya yung balikat ko, "Do it for me, hyung. Please." Lumingon ako sa kanya at kay Chain. Kasalanan ko kung bakit sya nakahiga dyan ngayon, at ako lang yung sagot para makabangon na sya ng tuluyan.
"Okay."
