Luhan
"Hyung, what is meaning of this?" Tanong agad ni Jongin pagkalayo ni Chain sa'kin. Tumingin lang ako sa kanya. "Look, alam na namin yung sitwasyon ni Chain ngayon. I mean, why did you bring her here?" Pilit nyang pinapahina yung boses nya para siguro hindi sya marinig ni Chain na kausap si Yanna ngayon.
"This party is for Nian. Are you fool?" Cold na sabi ni Kris na hindi ko napansing nasa likod ko pala. Ang sarap nilang itulak sa pool. "Hindi ko lang sya pwedeng iwan. She might hurt herself—"
"So you're going to hurt Nian?" Yifan said without any hesitation. Why am I surrounded by straightforward people. At muli, wala akong nasagot.
Napatingin na lang ako sa di kalayuang table at nakita ko si Chanyeol at Nian doon. Nian looking at Chain, probably thinking hates on her. Nagulat ako ng bigla syang tumingin sa'kin, and her gaze seems like it can kill people. I looked away because guilt is building up inside me.
"If that's the case, you won't get Nian back in your life, hyung. Act as a hyung naman oh, ako 'tong bata ako yung nai-stress e! Bes I kennot." At inalog alog nya si Kris na poker face lang. "Bata mo mukha mo. Don't us, Jongin. Don't us." At iniwan na nila akong dalawa dito. Good, natahimik din.
Hours have already passed and I couldn't actually enjoy the party. All of them are having fun while I'm here looks like im going to attend a funeral. Hindi ako mangiti. "Yah, Luhan." Nagulat ako ng may humampas sa braso ko, as in hampas. Lumingon ako at may penguin akong nakita.
"Kuha ka pa soju sa loob, wala ka namang ginagawa e. Ng may maitulong ka manlang." Bossy nyang sabi kaya wala na kong nagawa kundi pumasok sa loob ng hacienda nila Suho. Bukod dun sa bahay nila na kasama si Jinho, ari arian din nila Suho 'to. Edi sila na talaga mayaman.
Agad akong pumunta sa kusina at muntik na 'kong mapatalon ng may nakita akong pandak na may pilit na inaabot sa taas ng ref. "Need a hand?" Lumingon sya at napasimangot ng ako yung nakita nya. Yumuko ako agad. Ilang minuto din kaming tahimik ng bigla nyang binasag yung katahimikan.
"Kelan kayo ikakasal?"
Her tone sounds sarcastic. Dahan dahan kong iniangat yung tingin sa kanya. A smirk formed on her lips. "Let me explain—"
"Explain what? You don't owe me an explanation, Luhan. Besides, I don't need it."
Hahakbang na sana sya palayo pero lumapit ako sa kanya. "Hindi ka ba apektado? Kahit.. Kahit konti lang?" Pilit kong tinatago yung sakit sa tono ng boses ko. Sumimangot sya agad sa tanong ko.
"I have Chanyeol now. You have Chain. Do you think it is necessary to talk about this kind of stuff? Luhan, forget about me the way I forget about you."
Ibinaling ko agad yung tingin ko sa iba para hindi nya makita yung mata ko. Matang gustong gusto ng umiyak ngayon.
Bakit kase naging tanga ako dati. Why did I let a girl like you go? Why did I give you so much pain? Bakit ba ang tanga ko na hindi ko nakita yung importansya mo bago ka mawala sa'kin?
"I just want to ask you something." Huminga ako ng malalim at pinakalma yung boses ko. Tumango naman sya with a straight face. So emotionless. "Alam mo ba kung bakit ko nagawa 'yon five years ago?" Tanong ko at tumingin sa kanya. Nag-iba yung expression nya. Her eyebrows creased. Silence arose between us before she speaks.
"You've said it already that night. It was clear and I heard it right. Waeyo? May iba pa bang dahilan?" Her tone was half sarcastic and half curious. Neverthless, I just smiled. Kinuha ko na lang yung can opener na nasa taas ng ref at iniabot sa kanya. Tumalikod ako at kinuha yung soju na nasa lamesa. Then I slowly walked away from her.
So Chanyeol didn't tell her the truth. No wonder she hates me to death.
Nian
"What the heck?" Nakasimangot akong tumingin sa can opener na hawak ko at kay Luhan na palayo palabas na ng kusina. Inungkat nya yung sarili nyang kasalanan? So dumb. I rolled my eyes and threw the can opener back onto the top of refrigirator. I'm looking for a knife not for a damn can opener.
"Isasaksak ko sa noo mo, Chain." At nagsimula na ulit akong magbukas ng mga cabinets don. Syempre joke lang 'yon, I want to eat an apple. Kung pwede lang na ballpen ipangtusok ko dito e. Apple pen. Actually, I want it peeled. I found one inside one of those cabinets I searched at kinuha ko yung apple na nasa loob ng ref. Hinila ko yung upuan at umupo don then I started peeling off the apple. Pero may biglang pumasok sa isip ko.
He said he loves me but he also brings Chain here together with him? What's the sense of lying?
"Nia— Nian!"
Nagulat na lang ako ng may biglang humawak sa kamay ko para pigilan yung paghihiwa ko ng apple. Pen pineapple apple pen. "W-What?" Takang tanong ko sa kanya na tarantang taranta talaga bago ko hilain ng marahas yung kamay kong hawak nya.
Sakto andito kana, taas mo na yung bangs mo at isasaksak ko na sa noo mo 'to. Joke.
"Look at your hand, muntik mo ng mahiwa yung sarili mo." Iniangat ko yung kamay ko at nakita kong may konti sugat na rin. Dahil siguro sa kakaisip ko kanina. Bwiset ka talaga Bieber. "And why the hell do you care?" I harshly asked that made her stare at me.
"Because, because you are Luhan's friend." She innocently answered. Nangunot yung noo ko and I also stared at her for about a seconds. "What's the point of playing innocent, Chain? We're done. Luhan is already yours!" Sigaw ko at hindi pa rin sya gumagalaw sa kinatatayuan nya. It's so strange.
"Luhan? Isn't he already mine from the very start?"
