Posted: July. 7, 2016
This chapter is fucking awful. I hate it.
3. Rowan.
"Hey, I'm back" Harry walks into the kitchen, kissing my cheek and dropping his bags.
"Already? It's only Sunday" I turn around, leaning my back against the counter.
"Yeah, we got cut short" He shrugs "And, thank God for that" He wraps his arms around me "I missed you"
"I missed you too" I hum, kissing his chest.
"Let me take you out tonight, we can get your mom to watch Amelia and it can be the two of us, some booze, some kisses" He smirks "And other stuff" He adds with a chuckle and I laugh quietly, kissing his jaw.
"That sounds great" I say "But, I can't" I sigh "I didn't expect you to be home until tomorrow so I promised an old friend I'd go wedding dress shopping with her today"
"That's fine" He shrugs "Maybe some other time" He kisses my nose "I can spend time with Amelia while you're gone"
"I'll see you later, I'm meeting her in twenty minutes" I look down at my watch, running up to Amelia's room.
"I'm leaving now Baby, but Harry's here" I kiss her cheek and her face lights up as she hops out of bed, running to see Harry.
"Harry! Harry! Harry!" She cheers, wrapping her body around his leg. I giggle and kiss Harry's lips quickly, running out of the house. I drive to the dress shop that Trish told me to meet her at and walk inside, seeing her waiting for me.
"Hey" She smiles, hugging me tightly "It's just going to be you and me because my bridesmaids are upstairs looking for dresses and I want my dress to be a surprise. But I trust you to keep a secret" She winks and I laugh sitting down on the large L shaped couch.
She tries on dress after dress, telling me her thoughts on them before she comes out in her last dress "I like the shape, but that's about it" She runs her hands along her sides "I can't get over my second dress, it's all I can think about" She says, and I smile.
"Then I think you know which dress you want" I smile and she smiles back, running back into the room and coming out with the second dress telling the woman in the corner of the room that she found her dress. I remember when I was in her position. It's stressful, but the stress all becomes worth it when you marry the person you love.
After Trish pays for her dress she turns to me, smiling brightly "I have to get upstairs, I'll see you later?"
"Yeah sure" I nod walking out of the shop. I get into my car, and lean against the steering wheel with a sigh. I didn't want to go home, so I didn't. Instead I went to my moms house, knocking on her door. She swings it open and looks at me in confusion, opening the door wider.
"It's one of those days mom" I sigh and she wraps her arms around me, allowing me to cry into her shoulder.
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"I don't know ma. I regret everything, that's what my life has come to. One big ball of regret" I sigh, taking a drink from the bottle of tequila.
"What do you regret?" She asks, wrapping her arms tighter around me as we lay down in her bed.
"Getting married, turning Austin away at the wedding. Jumping so quickly into a relationship when I was pregnant. Maybe hints would be different if I never met Harry" I frown, taking another drink.
"Don't say that" She rubs my back, kissing my forehead.
"But I love him mom. I love him and I miss him so much" I cry, wiping at my tears "I can't fix what's been done and it really fucking sucks because I want to be with him still, but I know he doesn't want to be with me" I sniffle "And that article! I still can't read it"
"You have to Mi Amor" She kisses my forehead "Rosa sent it to me, and you have to read it"
"No, I won't and I can't" I shake my head "And you know what, Trish is getting married meaning Austin will be there. Part of me doesn't want to go because I don't want to run into him. I don't want him telling me some bullshit excuse as to why he left my poor little girl to wonder why daddy doesn't love her" I eat a tortilla chip, and my mom sighs.
"You were like that too. But I didn't have someone like Harry. It was just me and you" She pats my back for a second before continuing rubbing it "Don't take that for granted. He's there and he's willing to continue to care for a child that he knows is not his. He's there for you when Austin isn't. I know in the beginning I hated Austin, but I did warm up to him and I wish that he hadn't left because I wanted to see the two of you last. But Rowan, Harry is here, and he's not going anywhere unless you give him a reason to" She kisses my forehead, and I take another drink from my bottle of tequila, my mom climbing out of bed.
"I'm going to take these downstairs" She picks up the dirty dishes "Are you staying here?" She asks and I nod. She leaves the room and I pull out my phone seeing a text from Harry.
From: Harry💝💍🔑
Where are you? I'm worried.
To: Harry💝🔑💍
Sorry, I'm at my moms. I'll be home in the morning💙
From: Harry💝🔑💍
Everything okay?
To: Harry💝🔑💍
I'm fine, I just needed some mom and daughter time. I'll see you in the morning
From: Harry💝🔑💍
I'll see you in the morning Beautiful
"Come on, let's sleep" My mom lays down in bed beside me, wrapping her arms around me "I love you" She whispers, kissing my forehead.
"I love you" I whisper back, falling asleep within minutes.
The next morning I wake up, climbing out of my moms bed. I kiss her cheek and leave a note telling her I left to go home before leaving her house and driving back to mine. When I get there I unlock the door and walk inside,needing Harry in the living room. I walk in and sit down in his lap, wrapping my arms around his shoulders.
"I love you, I love you so much and I'm so grateful to have met you" I say before placing a light kiss to his lips. He smiles, and cups my cheeks in his hands, kissing me gently.
"I love you just as much" He whispers "You're my world"
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Hi
It's 12:40 in the morning😊✌🏽️
I'm exhausted but my step brother decided to take a shower as if he didn't have the chance to shower thought the entire day while he sat on his fat ass.
Sorry, I just don't like when bitches disrupt my sleep.
I love you all,
Sincerely,
DaddyMahone
