Posted: July. 8, 2016
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5. Rowan.
"Mommy! I can't find my shoe!" Amelia whines, running around the house with one shoe on. I groan and look around the house, trying to find her other shoe.
"Baby, what did you do with it? Mommy has to get you to Abuelita's, she's gonna be late" I huff, I, supposed to meet Austin in twenty minutes but it takes me that long to get to my moms house.
My doorbell rings, and I walk over to the door, putting my hand on the door knob "Keep looking for your shoe Lia" I yell to her, pulling open the door, my stomach dropping "What are you doing here?" I ask Austin "You're suppose to meet me at the cafe"
"Mommy, I found it" Amelia runs over to me, holding up her shoe. Austin looks down at her and my chest tightens when I hear her little voice "Daddy?" She whispers and I look down at her.
"Go upstairs and grab a toy to bring to Abuelita's" I turn her around, making her run up the steps.
"She's beautiful" Austin smiles, and I shift uncomfortably.
"Yeah, she is" I nod.
"You look at me like you don't want me here" He leans against the door frame and I shrug.
"Because I don't" I say.
"Why not?"
"Because, I didn't want you to see her" I frown, and he looks as if I just told him his dog died.
"I want to see her" He demands.
"Absolutely not" I cross my arms over my chest "You lost every right to see her when you walked out on her" I shake my head "You thought you walked out on me, but you're wrong. You left her" I point my thumb through the front door "And now you have to pay the price"
"Rowan, please" He begs "You can't do this to me, I'm so sorry for leaving. I just couldn't handle not being able to be able to call you mine anymore. I don't like that you chose him over me-"
"But I didn't" I cut him off "I waited 5 months waiting for you to come back, but I got nothing from you. I wanted nothing more than for you to come back, but you didn't!" I cry "So what was I supposed to do? Raise her by myself when there was someone who wanted to be with me? I couldn't do that" I shake my head "She asks about you, all the fucking time. She asks me why you don't love her, and why you left her. Do you know what that's like? Hearing your own daughter ask you why her father doesn't love her"
"I'm so sorry, let me fix it. Please, please, I'll move back here, I'll do whatever you want just please, let me fix this" He pleads.
"I can't-"
"Please Ro, I'm literally begging you. I'll do whatever it takes" He promises "Just, let me make it better again"
"Mommy" Amelia opens the front door, peeking her head out. I look down at her and and she frowns "Why are you crying Mommy?" She grabs my hand "Are you sad?"
"No Baby, I'm not sad" I knee, down to her level, kissing her cheek "What's wrong?"
"Come here" She grabs my cheek "Is that Daddy?" She whispers in my ear, and I bite my lip looking at Austin before looking down at her. My lip quivers slightly as I nod my head, a wide smile forming in her lips "Really?" She giggles, running up to Austin and hugging his legs. She screams about how much she missed him, and wondered where he was, leaving me to sit on the ground, sobbing quietly to myself.
"Let me talk to your mom okay?" I hear him whisper to her, and soon she's walking past me, kissing my cheek.
"I love you Mommy. Don't cry"
"I'll be okay Baby" I smile at her "I love you" I say, and she giggles, running back into the house and I stand back up, shutting the door.
"Please stop crying" He whispers, wrapping his arms around my shoulders "Why are you upset?"
"Because, she's so quick to tell you she misses you because she doesn't understand that you abandoned her. You left her, but she's so happy to see you and I don't know what to do" I sob, and he rubs my back softly.
"I'm sorry, I'll leave" He sighs "I shouldn't have done this-"
"Are you serious?" I scoff, pulling away from him "You can't leave now! She was so excited to see you and now you want to leave. It'll hurt her even more in the second time"
"I don't know what you want Rowan. You're yelling that you don't want me involved with her and now you're telling me I can't leave. What do you want?"
"I- She was too happy for you to leave again" I sigh "If you want to see her, you can, but I have to know about it all the time, and you can't do it when Harry is around"
"What? Why not?"
"He'll kill me if he found out I'm letting Amelia go with you" I run a hand through my hair.
"Tell him to fuck off, she's half mine and half yours. He needs stay out of it" He huffs.
"Austin, he was here when you weren't"
"I know. You don't have to keep reminding me!" He exclaims and I frown "I told you I feel bad about it, but I'm willing to fix it" He places his hands on my shoulders "But, he doesn't have a complete say, what will he do?" He runs his hands along my arms, and I hate to admit it, but his touch still brings me the utmost comfort "Besides, Amelia will probably tell him within a week. Kids are like that" He chuckles, and I nod.
"She can't keep a secret for shit" I giggle.
"Mommy, I'm hungry" Amelia whines.
"I'll take you both out for lunch, my treat" Austin offers.
"Not sure if I want to be on the front covers of magazines" I sigh, but he only shrugs.
"Don't be a shit" He pinches my nose "You're husband will get over it" He rolls his eyes.
"Please Mommy" Amelia drawls out "I'm so hungry" She clutched her stomach dramatically.
"Alright, fine Drama Queen" I chuckle, reaching into the door and grabbing my keys from the key bowl "I just need to grab my walle-"
"Didn't I say it was my treat? You don't need it, let's go" He motions towards his car "Damn, where'd you get that car?" He wolf whistles, eyeing my car.
"Meh, no where special" I tease "But, unless you want to transfer a car seat, it's better if we take mine" I hold up my keys and he takes them from me, getting into the drivers seat. I roll my eyes and climb into the passenger seat.
I still haven't read that article, and with each second I spend with him, my mind tells me to read it. But I know I shouldn't, so I push that thought to the back of my mind.
I can't let him in again.
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