Everything Would Change

Get Back

Chapter Eight

Mac

Demi is leaving tomorrow and we are just sitting on the couch in the hotel, watching crime shows because Demi here is obsessed. It's ridiculous. I've been trying to ignore the voices in my head, and I don't want to bother Demi again. I feel like it's constantly Demi I need this or I need that or help me with this. I'm too needy and I'm a burden. It's getting harder to stop listening, to ignore them, and digging my nails into my palms just isn't enough anymore. I looked down at my hands, the little half-moon indents in my palms, and saw a tiny speck of blood rising to the surface.

I tried to quietly get up and go to the bathroom, but just as I stood up Demi grabbed my hand "You can talk to me instead, that's what I'm here for..." and she softly pulled me back down and took my hands, rubbing her thumbs over the half-moons. I tore my eyes from watching her rub my hands and set them on her face, she didn't look disappointed, and she didn't even look upset. She just looked...like she loved me and that's what broke me.

I couldn't stop the tears pouring down my face, I wanted to get up and run away, get away from her somehow "I'm just ruining everything Demi, I'm going to ruin you too and I don't want that to happen. I'm so scared you're going to hate me and I'll never see you again. You're the only person I have, I don't think I could go back to not having you here" I couldn't stop crying, burying my head in her lap she started rubbing circles and singing; the space in between us starts to feel like we're worlds apart like I'm going crazy and you say it's raining in your heart you're telling me nobody's there to dry up the flood oh but that's just crazy cause baby I told ya I'm here for good. Slowly I started to feel my heart slow down, and my breathing began to match Demi's.

I buried my head into her lap and spread out across the couch, she giggled at my attempts to get comfortable "What are you doing baby girl? I sighed and rolled over so I was looking up at her "You're leaving tomorrow, what am I going to do?" her smile dropped, though she tried to keep it in place, and she instinctively put her arm around me the other still tangled in my hair "I'm sorry baby girl...but all I'll be doing is interviews and at the studio! We will be able to talk so much I promise. You'll be okay..."I nodded and closed my eyes.

Mac

I was making breakfast, just bacon and eggs with hash browns, Demi's favorite. I wanted to do something nice, she's leaving tonight and that means I have to go back. Back to that house and back to my life of bullies, abuse and self-loathing. I had told Demi I would try but as soon as she was gone I knew I would fail. "Hey! That's my job!" finally the sleepy monster was awake "Took you long enough, I was sure you'd come out when the bacon was cooking" this girl was obsessed with bacon, I swear she drools just thinking about it. She laughed and came over wrapping her arms around my waist as I took the bacon and eggs off the pan "You should've waken me baby, I would've cooked for you" "I know Memi...I wanted to do it...for you..."she smiled and kissed my forehead "You're cheeky, oh my god are those hash browns, I get hash browns too!?" jumping on the spot and clapping "You're a loser. Yes and it's ready so sit the fuck down" she ran to the stools and sat down.

"Okay okay okay!! GIMME GIMME! Oh my god it smells so fucking good kid" I put it in front of her and she frowned "You made enough for you too right..." I smiled and shook my head, pulling my plate over and next to hers "Yes, I knew you wouldn't eat it if I didn't eat too" she looked at my plate her frown increasing "You only have one egg, two pieces of bacon and one hash brown...you gave me double that..." I looked down at my plate and sighed "Just let me get this down...and then you can make me eat more okay?" she nodded her smile returning to her cute face, god I'm going to miss her.

"Dem...can we go shopping today? It's our last day and I need to get some stuff before you leave?" she smiled and got up to rinse her plate "yeah baby girl of course we can! You know me I love to shop! Also baby that breakfast was amazing!" I smiled and nodded, time to get ready. I chucked on my ripped black overalls, a white t-shirt with rock n roll on it and my yellow docs. I did my makeup today and decided on straightening my hair and leaving it out with a backwards snapback that was red with my favorite NY, New York Yankees, in white. Once Demi was ready she grabbed her keys and we headed to the mall.

I quickly snapped a picture of me and Demi, I had snuck a kiss on the cheek as well as giving her bunny ears and her little pout was adorable. I decided it was about time I chuck one on twitter, so I quickly wrote a tweet out 'day out with my home gurl @ddlovato bitches be jealous 'and attached the picture. My mentions started blowing up and I laughed at everyone's reactions, I'd posted a few times that I was with Demi and it was always the same reaction. I love you guys and oh my god jhsdiufhbid no way and then the best responses of all time omfg Demi is so hot and omfg sit on my face Demi. It was hilarious. I got hate but I quickly closed twitter and locked my phone.

I need to get away from Demi so I can get her gift started. "Hey Dem, I just wanna stop off at this jewellery place can I meet you at Topshop?" I'm hoping she'll be so focused on getting to Topshop she'll agree and apparently luck won out. "Yeah baby girl, I saw the cutest top in there that I just need in my life, text me when you're close so we can find a meet up!"and with that she skipped, literally skipped, her way to Topshop. I'm hanging around with a child.

I rushed inside the store and found what I was looking for, a gold heart locket. I made my way over to the counter and told the girl what I wanted "do you guys do engravings too?" she smiled and nodded "yeah definitely, did you want to get this engraved?" "Yes please" I wrote down what I wanted engraved and handed the form back to her "how long will it take do you know?" "Yeah hon, it'll take about half an hour to an hour, can I just double check what you wanted engraved. It's 'Memi, all my love Baby Girl, 09.16.12' is that correct?" I nodded "Yeah that's perfect and I can just put the picture in it later" she smiled and I quickly paid and left. Okay so I need an excuse to go back in half an hour.

Me: Hey Memi, I'm on my way where are you?

D: Baby girl! I'm still in top shop, by the shoessss!

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I left Demi changing in forever 21 and quickly rushed to get the locket. I typed her a quick text telling her I was going to the bathroom, I'd be right back and then we should get lunch. Once I got to the store I walked to the counter and found the same girl "Hey, is my locket ready?" she smiled and nodded "Yeah, I'll just grab it for you!" as she walked outback to grab it I got a reply from Demi "hey you left me! Hurry up okay I'm done in forever 21! I got so much stuff and I'm super hungry lunch sounds great!" ugh why did she have to be so fast! The girl returned and handed me the box with the locket in it and a bag "Thanks!" I yelled before rushing off to find somewhere to eat. "Demi I want subway..." after looking for her for 20minutes I finally called her and she was freaking in another store looking at clothes. This girl is the worst.