Everything Would Change

Trust

Mac

It's been two weeks at this stupid school, it's not as bad as my previous school because I have Elodie and Katie but at the same time it's just as awful. The work isn't hard but I hear snickers behind my back and one girl has taken a liking to whispering shit in my ears and leaving notes in my locker. 

Some girl called Amanda, but Katie gives her shit every time she notices and same with Elodie. I've wanted to talk to Demi, tell her my cutting is getting worse but instead I see how happy she is that I have friends and how I'm staying on top of all my work. So I can't; I can't bring myself to tell her.

I've been sticking to skinny jeans and jumpers and slacks for bed, Demi hasn't said anything so I assume she doesn't know. I wear long sleeves to school so the girls don't know, though they have asked about it a few times, I've been lucky that it's coldish. I've been making sure to clean my bathroom completely, I only cut at school or in my bathroom and I've concentrated on my legs so it's much easier to hide. I've been getting food at lunch but I always go "fix my make-up" before class so I can purge.

I can't do it at home, I'm too scared Demi will hear or come in while I'm doing it. We've been sleeping together most nights too which is hard because whenever she hits my cuts by accident I have to act like nothing happened, it's cute how she loves to cuddle. I love having her in my room in case of my nightmares or me in her room.

I'm sitting in French watching the clock tick, we were supposed to be doing work from our books but I had given up 15 minutes ago when there was 20 minutes' left of class and I decided I was going to finish it at home. I kept watching the clock tick as I felt my phone vibrate, I assumed it was Demi since this was my last period, and pulled it out into my lap.

Unknown: Hey bitch, just wanted to know if you liked my note in your locker today, maybe you can go cry to your pathetic freak of a parent. That's right we know you're living with Demi Fatvato and so will the whole school.

I slammed my phone between my thighs and looked at Katie, who was luckily in my French class too, and shook my head "Bathroom. Now." She nodded and asked for a hall pass along with me. I ran to the bathroom and collapsed against the sinks as tears started falling down my face "Mac what happened!? What's going on!?" I passed her my phone with the message still open and hiccuped. 

"I deliberately kept my name as Sloan for this reason, I didn't want anyone knowing. God what am I going to do, god I don't even know what the note is!" I sat up and pulled myself from the floor "To my locker it is, I need to know what the note is" Katie looked at me and looked back at the phone, a conflicted emotions in her eyes 

"Maybe we should call Demi, she would want to know..." I shook my head and walked out the bathroom "I'm not telling Demi, she doesn't need this she starts X Factor soon and she's so nervous and stressed already"

We made our way to my locker and opened it both taking a step back when we saw the note float to the floor. I quickly picked it up and unfolded it.

Hey Bitch, wait until the whole schools finds out your secret, I saw your bag under the stall after lunch. More like Demi than we thought huh? I wonder what else you could be hiding under your jeans and long sleeves. I've got my eyes on you, not that it's hard with your fat ass. Maybe you should stop off at the bathroom more.

No one had signed it and I felt it drop from my hands and saw Katie swoop for it immediately. What am I going to do? I heard Katie swear and grab out her phone and dial someone "Bitch Mac's locker now" and hang straight up. It wasn't long until I heard running down the hall followed by a loud yelling.