Lay, My One and Only

Chapter 60: I Miss You

Yixing's Point of View:

I woke up in the morning because of the sun rays burning at me. Yesterday I didn't see Karrera because she wasn't answering her phone or her texts. It's not usual for us to not see each other, so I decided to text her.

" Hey angel! How'd you sleep? Are you free today?" I texted. Well, she has been really busy these past few weeks so I completely understand. She's probably working or something.

I was still tired but I was hungry too. My eyes weren't even fully open but I went and ate breakfast. I made some cereal for myself and I peacefully ate. Until I heard this noise outside my front door. I decided to open it to see what it was...but my attention went somewhere else when I saw a purple piece of paper fall down. Purple...my favorite. My angel's favorite.

I picked it up off the floor and I took it inside to read it. It had a lot of ink. I read it carefully.

Dear Lambicorn,

Yes. It's me. You can tell by the greeting. Ugh. Even reading these few words make me want to cry.

You're my one and only, Yixing. I love you more than anyone in the whole galaxy. More than I've ever loved anyone. More than everyone combined. That's how special you are to me. But please understand.

For our own good. For yours, especially. We have to split. I have tears falling down this second. Don't think that it's easy for me. I'm crying rivers. But it's for our own good. We just can't continue on. There's no reason to tell you why, either. I just can't.

Please don't come looking after me. Don't call me. Text me. Run after me. It'll all just be useless. No one knows where I am. Not even my family. Not even Tao. Honestly, I feel so lost without you guys. But please understand. I've left. I'm not where you think I am.

Please tell Tao that I love him so much, but I can't see him either. I have to stay away from all of you. All 12 of you. Please, pass this message to everyone because I can't contact anyone.

Luhan. Thank you for being my second brother. It seems like you always had my back and you were more of a brother to me than Chen and Luo. Thank you for protecting me and always supporting me.

Chen. Thank you for being the troll you are. Thank you for always cheering me up and being one of my closest friends. Don't think I'll ever forget about your cheesy puns, either.

Xiumin. Thank you for being my advice giver. Everything you've ever said to me has brought me to where I am now. I can't thank you enough and I'll always follow your words.

D.O. Thank you for being a satanasoo. We were never the closest but just your facial expressions made me laugh. Always stay the same, murderer-face you are. And I promise that you'll find a girlfriend. Don't worry about it anymore.

Baekhyun. Thank you for helping me all this way. You know what I'm talking about. You helped me with so many things and I just can't thank you enough. And I am so grateful that even though it got you in trouble multiple times, you still continued and helped us.

Kai. Please promise that you'll never change. And even after you've found the perfect one for you you'll still be weird Kai as always. And also promise that you'll be Jongin, and not Kai. I like Jongin more.

Sehun. Thank you for all the nicknames you've given me even after all the flicks you've gotten. Never grow up. Stay the maknae you are.

Chanyeol. Thank you for being so cool around me. I know how you've felt but you were so cool around me and I can't thank you enough. Thank you for accepting me even though I wasn't yours. And always be a happy virus.