Lay, My One and Only

Chapter 61: Miss You Much

It's been a week since I left EXO and it has been the hardest week of my life. I swear I'm going crazy. There's no one to talk to or anything. And I'm so lonely.

And my interviews are all about why I left. I kept answering it was for various reasons. Just in case those psychopaths are watching again. Still, no sign of them. Which is good.

Finally, I have another interview.

But you know what...fuck it.

I'm going to tell everyone why I left. The truth.

And maybe then EXO will understand why.

And maybe then they can help me.

And I can return to my normal life with them.

Yeah. That's what I'm doing.

And fuck those psychos. I'm doing it. Getting back together with him wasn't part of the deal...

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I was on another extrememly popular talk show/interview tonight. We had been talking for around half an hour and everything was going very smooth and well.

" So, Karrera..." said Mr. Ji-Hu. " I know you've been getting this asked all week, but I'm just dying to know. Why leave EXO? Your brother? Your boyfriend? Was there any reason?"

I took a deep breath.

" There actually was a reason..." I said. The crowds gasped and so did mr. Ji-Hu.

" Really?" he asked. I nodded.

" Yes. There was. I actually found a letter...at my doorstep...by these extremely strange and creepy people. They said they had weapons and if I left EXO and broke up with Yixing...then nothing would happen to anyone and we would all be safe. They said that if I didn't leave or break up with Yixing...then they would harm. Probably me...probably EXO. I just couldn't risk this. They also said that if I mentioned this to anyone...then they would definetly harm. But they've been silent for around a week so I think they're satisfied. I swear this has been the hardest week of my life. I've been so lonely and I haven't really been in contact with anyone. I don't think that I can meet EXO again because I don't want them to be harmed. And I don't want to be harmed either. But hopefully they're watching and they'll understand why," I said. I was so sad. Tears wanted to fall down but I didn't let them. Ji-Hu was very sad for me. He understood. The crowd was really sad and I actually heard a few cries. " And...people have been saying very rude things to me about all of a sudden leaving. I understand that that's what it looks from the outside, but most of the time you have to chip through to see what's actually happening on the inside. Please don't think I'm heartless. Please don't think I'm cruel. Please don't think I'm a monster. I've been getting that a lot recently. I just did it for everyone's sake."

Ji-Hu frowned because he was really sad.

" Oh...well...I'm very sorry to hear that. I hope that someday you can track those threaters down and you can reunite with EXO once more," said Ji-Hu. " And I'm sure that EXO will be very pleased to see you again. They've been very sad since you've left. Did you hear the song Yixing wrote and sang last night?"

I nodded and blushed.

" Yes. I know. I just really want everything to go back to the way it used to. But I can't because we still haven't found those threats and there's still danger. What's even worse is that I have to stay out of contact with them. Because they said that then they would surely harm. And it's really hard keeping away. I mean, I'm not allowed to speak to my best friends, my boyfriend, or even my brother. It's really a pain..." I said.