Lay, My One and Only

Chapter 30: Post

I shed my tears and burst out crying. I couldn't focus on the road. I used bluetooth and I called both my friends. Hannah picked up.

" Karrera?"

" H...Han...Hannah..." I said. I was sniffing up all my tears.

" Karrer! What the hell happened!? OMG!"

" I...I'm driving..." I replied.

" Where are you?"

" I...I don...don't know..." I said. But then I noticed a sign. I had circled around and I was driving by Hannah's house...which was close to the freeway. " I'm...on I-43,"

" OMG you're near me. Here...I'll pick you up..." and I kept driving near her house until I saw her. I parked my car and I ran to her as fast as hell. Yixing was a few hundred feet behind, so Hannah didn't see him...and she escorted me inside her fancy-ass house. By the time Yixing parked we were already in her room. Hannah was stroking my hair. I barely, and slowly, explained to her what happened.

" WHAT!? THAT CHEATER! THAT...LOSER! KRIS WAS RIGHT AFTER ALL!" she exclaimed, making me shed even more tears. She hugged me tight. I got constant calls from Yixing and so I just turned off my phone. " Here...how about you come sleep here tonight?"

I nodded as I wept. She had a king sized bed, and we always share it when I sleep over. Hannah and I have always been slightly closer with each other than Erika. But Erika still is our BFF.

I peeked outside my window and Hannah followed. We saw Yixing's car and his sillhouette. He was weeping and banging his head onto the wheel. Good. He deserves it. And after all we've been through...

It was already 11 and Yixing decided to drive away...back home.

" I suggest we get drunk to forget about him..." said Hannah.

" Are you freaking crazy Hannah!?" I exclaimed. Hannah laughed.

" Kidding...kidding," she said. " But I do swear...even if I get drunk...I'll NEVER forget about Luo."

Oh god.

I lied down on the bed and I turned off my lamp.

Hannah faced me.

" Are you serious!? What's with Luo...? I just don't see it! He's OK looking, but why are you so crazy over him for the past...what...5 years!?" I exclaimed. She laughed.

" Oh Karrera. Luo...you and him are more a like than you and Tao. Your personality, your looks, everything. Everything he says reminds me of you. Looking at him, well, he's like a male version of you. And even though everyone says that you and Tao are alike, which is still true...well...they haven't seen Luo. Luo, just, he reminds me of you. You're just such a great and amazing person that I love Luo for that," she said. I smiled. Am I really that much alike with my brothers?

" Thanks...Han. And...just for that...I'll try my best to hook you up when he visits on Sunday," I said. She smiled and hugged me.

" THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU KARRER! YOU'RE THE BEST!" she exclaimed. I laughed and I rested my head on the pillow.

" Hannah...thanks for everything..." I said. She smiled and she turned off her light. I began to tear up again. He stroked my hair.

" It's OK, bae. Everything will be alright. Now get some sleep, and we'll deal with that ish in the morning, OK?" she said. A tear fell down my cheek. I nodded and turned away.

Hannah fell asleep easily, but I couldn't. I just couldn't get my mind off Yixing.

Why would he do that? I thought he said that I was his one and only...

Was I acting strange? Was I not giving him enough attention? Was he just...over me?

It was 11:30 and I checked my phone. I was following celebrity news and I saw a new post. It was Yixing and his girlfriend.

Oh! Baby! Looks like EXO's Lay has a new girl! Is she a nobody...or could she be a former idol? We don't have much proof, but we'll dig deeper into this. Until later, we'll keep you posted.

I shed some more tears and I ran to the bathroom to wash my face. I was tired as hell but I couldn't fall asleep. This was just, running through my head. I didn't want to believe it but I had to. Even the news saw it. They posted it.

I wanted to scream like hell but I didn't, not to wake up Hannah and her family.

I swear I was going crazy. I was becoming a psychopath. Why? Here's what I did to fall asleep.

I just wanted to have a few moments to forget about this. Just to relax. I had to fall asleep.

I have this tendency where I fall asleep when I'm in extreme pain. So, I took the nail scissors out of Hannah's bathroom drawer and I cut some skin off my knee. I was in such bad pain. I wanted to cry, even more. But this made me forget about Yixing for a few seconds. I went back in bed and I slept, with a bleeding knee.

See? See what I'm going through!? It was like...like a mild version of suicide. That's how mad this is.