Dear Jen

Welp

August 4th, 2016

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Dear Jen,

So I went to the hospital, as you know, and you probably also know that nothing's changed. They still don't know what's causing what's happening to me. So I'm getting bloodwork done tomorrow, which I'm scared of for no reason other than because of Mom xD They're also scheduling an MRI for sometime soon, which both Mom and I won't be surprised if it comes back completely normal. My boyfriend, we'll call him 'Dark' here just so you know, thinks it's probably something pretty bad because of how long it's been going on for. For many reasons, I wouldn't be too mad if it was something bad xD 

I didn't do much else today other than continue to play my video game, which got annoying quickly with overpowered players and inappropriate idiots, but I tuned them out, as I do. 

One thing I've noticed very recently is that once I get upset about something, my brain has a party. Like last night, I couldn't do something properly in my game, which caused me to get embarrassed and frustrated, so I went to bed, but I couldn't fall asleep because apparently I needed to do more important things like think about everything wrong with me. That was fun. It makes it hard to see the positive side of things and get out of the initial situation. 

I told you how Dark and I had been watching anime together, right? We're about to finish Akagami no Shirayukihime, which is honestly one of my favorite animes ever. If you haven't seen it, you should really check it out when you have some time. It's mostly romance, but it has some other really nice themes in it as well. Two seasons, 12 episodes each, and please please please watch it subbed xD even though the dubbing was done by Funimation, it ruins the show xD 

That's pretty much it. I hope you had a good day (: 

Love you! 

Mel

p.s. the song I've had on repeat is We Don't Talk Anymore by Charlie Puth and Selena Gomez. Popular and catchy, not much to it, but nonetheless obsessed with it right now xD