Dear Jen

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September (ew) 1st, 2016

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Dear Jen,

Sorry I didn't post yesterday. Literally nothing happened at all xD 

Today, I had a dream where I married Danny? That's crazy and extremely weird, and I woke up and I was like 0.o It was like 2:30, and I only got up because I wanted to eat lunch xD 

I didn't do anything but the usual all day, but I did learn something, I guess. Dark and I went into competitive multiplayer, and when I'm not warmed up and not thinking critically, I'm really not good at that xD I made a lot of stupid mistakes that really wouldn't have mattered (at one point, I did something that could have made me laugh hysterically for hours), but he gets upset easily, and it was easy to tell that he was trying to be nice to me, but I was messing up pretty bad xD I'm able to laugh about it now, but I was really upset. I wanted to leave and let the odds of the game be in someone else's hands, but he would have been slightly offended by that, too. I just really understood that, if there's a choice between doing something that makes you upset or doing something that makes you happy, or less upset, especially when it's something that in-your-control, you should choose the happier option. And I didn't know how to make that happen. And when I'm trying to make myself happy in those situations, I get really slap-happy and weird and annoying, so that's never good. He went to bed upset, and I knew that would happen, and I just didn't know how to tell him that literally anything else would be better. So yeah 

So that's pretty much all that happened today, and that's pretty much the gist of what will happen tomorrow, but I'll make sure to talk to you again then :) 

Love you! Hope you have a good day tomorrow! 

Mel 

p.s. into the limelight by trivecta is my favorite song right now, and it's just. . .it's so good