Dear Jen

noooooooo

September 8th, 2016

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Dear Jen,

Today was really, really long and really, really not fun xD 

Seminary got like 5 more students, which just makes things a whole lot louder and a whole lot less spiritual, especially with three VanDerwerkens in there. It's just so inconsiderate to the people who actually want to feel the Spirit and learn in seminary that they talk about things completely unrelated and distract everyone. It's gonna be a tough year. 

Then school came :)))))) I haven't had all around pain in my body for quite a while now, but sitting in one position with barely any flexibility is more than painful. Plus, I walked up one flight of stairs and got really dizzy. Plus it's extremely hot in the school, so yay me, right? 

The one bright thing in my day was my poetry class, oh my gosh. I don't care how hard this class is going to be, within the first few minutes I already missed writing. Our teacher said we would learn more about writing in that class than in any English class we'd ever taken. She was asking us stuff like, "Forget the meaning of words for a second. What words do you like the sound of?" And then she asked us to try to make a metaphor about an anxious person using a car, a table, a cat, it was amazing! I love environments or people that exude a completely different and usually beautiful way of thinking. 

By the end of the day, I was ready to cry xD I'm completely exhausted, so Mom went to the store and bought all of my school supplies for me <3 Everything hurts and it's boiling hot everywhere I go, but at least tomorrow is Friday. 

I said like two words to Dark today, not because I'm mad or anything about yesterday, because I talked to myself about what to do in those situations from now on, but because he didn't even try to talk to me. I asked him how his day was, and he said it was good, and then just played a game until I was like "...goodnight, I guess." Honestly, I'm glad we didn't do anything together because today was enough already xD Maybe he's mad at me? I wouldn't care that much at this point xD 

I'm hoping tomorrow will be a little better now that I know what to expect, but I'm still not excited for it xD 

I'm going to go to bed now because I've never needed it more xD I actually thought that I was getting better because I haven't gotten dizzy recently and the pain wasn't that bad, but like most problems in my life, they don't quit bugging me xD 

I hope you had a good day, and I hope you know that writing this to you actually made me feel a lot better :) 

Love you! 

Mel 

p.s. in seminary, Jackson was like 'I wanna sit in the middle, next to you, Melissa.' And the rest of the world didn't hear it, but I squealed