Dear Jen

Not So Bad

August 16th, 2016

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Dear Jen,

So today was the six month anniversary of Dark and I going out. That's a long time! It definitely doesn't feel that long. 

Today I had a doctor's appointment at 10, so I tried to get to bed by around 3 am, but that didn't happen xD I tried falling asleep around 4, but I couldn't stop my brain from thinking. So that whole thing with feeling out of control and such, yeah that's over now. I just had a really long talk with myself, knocked some sense into my head, and now I'm back to normal. For the moment. I really hope it stays that way. 

So yeah, I fell asleep around 5:30 am, and had to wake up at 7:30 to shower for my appointment xD But I'm glad that I was able to talk to myself while I was trying to fall asleep. It was all worth it. So the consensus that was come to at my appointment is that I definitely need surgery. I don't know if Mom told you already, but yeah. We're gonna try to do it sometime in December so that I'll have time to recover over Christmas break and not miss as much school. It'll be quite the Christmas present xD but I guess it's for the best. What makes me laugh is that this is a whole different situation from the dizziness/fainting thing xD I have so many problems lol

Then I came home and slept for a few hours, and then I played some games with Dark up until now. It seems like the days are pretty short. Or maybe I just don't pay enough attention to the time.

Tomorrow I have my MRI, which I'm not overly excited for, but I know it'll be fine. I was going to say I would write when I got home tomorrow, but that probably won't happen xD I'm not quite sure what's holding me back from doing that, but I'll work to figure that out too

Hope you had a good day, and just know that I'm praying really hard for you! Love you!

Mel

p.s. today wasn't completely terrible! would you look at that