Selene's New Moon

You Can Do What?!

Dwyer held me the entire time I cried, with no sign of impatience.  I don't know how long we have been sitting her, but his shirt definitely has a wet spot now and I feel really exhausted.  My tears are beginning to stop now and my breathing is becoming more even and normal.  I feel so empty and numb...  At some point, Kenji and Aiden had come to sit next to us.  Aiden is petting my head and Kenji had somehow managed to get a hold of one of my hands and is now rubbing circles on the top of my hand with his thumb.  I can feel Dwyer's steady heart beat under my cheek.  I concentrate on that , and feel myself calm even more.  The numbness that I had felt recedes as I feel all of their touches.  A warmth fills me up.  It is almost overwhelming,  but I crave more of it at the same time.   Like a sponge, my soul seems to be soaking up every bit of their care.  I realize that I have been missing out on so much.  Is this what it is like to have someone who cares about you?

   "Are you ok Selene?"  Kenji asks softly.    Oh my gosh!  I may not be insane, but I am acting like a crazy girl right now.  I just had a total break down and cried all over 3 really good looking guys.

    "I am so sorry!"  I croak out, pushing off of Dwyer's chest.  I rub the tears off my face and keep my face down. "You barely know me, and here I am getting you all soggy."

    "No need to be sorry Doll"  says Aiden. 

    Then Dwyer chuckles  "Hey, I got to hold a cute girl- I'm not complaining."

    Kenji squeezes my hand before letting go and smiles at me gently.  Aiden had removed his hand from my head when I pushed away from Dwyer, and he is now sitting comfortably with some of his weight resting on his hands behind him.  "Tell us about your parents little one."

    I blush at yet another new name he seems to have given me.  Does he have a hard time remembering names,  or is it just a part of his personality to give people pet names?  I find that I don't really mind it though.  "My parents think that I am insane because I used to talk about things that they could never see or feel.  I am sure it doesn't help that I don't look much like either of them.  My parents both have brown hair.    My eye color doesn't match either of theirs ,  and they have always said that my eyes are really creepy.  They don't like to see them.  They keep me at home and I am home schooled so that nobody finds out about me.  Mother always said that if people find out, I would have to be put in a home for  the insane.  I have a tendency to make her really angry,  so I try to stay out of sight as much as possible.  But we have a house keeper that looks after me.  She makes the meals, does the cleaning ,  and when I was little,  she did things like bathe and dress me. "  None of the boys seem happy with what I tell them and I feel bad for upsetting them.   I know from watching t.v. and movies that my family life is not normal.   This is the most talking I have done and I feel really nervous.  I can tell that the boys want to ask questions, but they seem to take pity on me.

    Kenji runs his hands through his short black hair, then says  "There are not many of us.  I mean, people like us.  Hardly anyone knows anything about us, and for our safety and the safety of others, we like to keep it that way."

    "People tend to be afraid of what they don't understand.  It can get dangerous...... for everyone."  Aiden says.  He seems to tense up , no longer looking relaxed, and his voice sounds a little pained and bitter.  We all seem to need a moment to think, and it is quiet.  We are all still sitting closely together, but we are no longer touching.  I am both relieved and sad.

    Kenji continues,  "We all feel the energy and we can feel when something has... disturbed it.  But we are all a little different in what we can do......"  At this , the boys are all exchanging looks and they now seem a little nervous.  It is kind of strange seeing them look unsure all of a sudden.  So far that have all seemed so confident to me. I continue to watch them as they seem to come to a decision.