Never Knew I Needed

14.1

Adrienne, New Years Day

I woke up to the sound of the the front door opening or closing. Whichever. Either way I'm pissed it woke me up.

First question of the day: Why?

My room door opened and in walked Jay. Why am I not surprised?

"How do you feel?" He sat on my bed and leaned back over my legs so he was now laying like the line to my lower case T. ( t )

"Like I wanna smack that cheery mood out of you"

"So no morning sex?" He started laughing.

My eyebrows immediately creased together "Am I supposed to get that joke?" Is it even a joke? What I miss?

"Yes" he proceeded to tell me everything that happened last night including the argument between him and Jessie then my little sexual things which my face burned up at.

It's one thing for me to say them sober when I'm aware of what I'm saying than drunk and not. I told him about RJ and Damien.

"You kissed a stranger? Who happened to be related to Jessie?"

"Well he kissed me but yes I kissed back"

He shook his head. "Reckless"

I shrugged. "He's a pretty good kisser plus he was good looking so I'm not complaining"

"Well at least someone had a good night"

"It was alright. I would've preferred if Jessie ain't blow my buzz but whatever I danced on two fine ass honeys and kissed a fine ass honey"

He shook his head again. "Speaking of Jess I told her we'd talk when we were both sober"

"Just get drunk and say you're too drunk to function"

"Ima have to talk to her eventually"

I shrugged before finally sitting up. "So what are you gonna do?"

"I don't know. I stopped by my uncles barbershop yesterday"

"Uhhuh?"

"I went to see him about some advice"

"On Jessie?"

"You and Jessie"

"What about us?"

He told me about him and his uncles conversation.

"Awww jayyyyyyy!" I pulled him into a hug. "You'd keep our friendship"

He let me hug him and just laid on me. "Yeah but I'm pretty sure it cost me my relationship"

My arms faltered. "Sorry"

"Shit wasn't working it's not entirely your fault"

I nudged him. "So what now?"

"Bout to stock up on some shawtys and be a hoe for a while"

"I don't think that's a good idea"

"Why not? Clearly relationships aren't meant for me. Shit I almost cheated on her with Ari didn't I?"

I pushed him off of me. "You did not tell me that! When?"

"iight so bitch" he started in a ghetto female voice after sitting up to face me. "On Christmas Ari called me to say merry Christmas and shit so I answered of course because that was my shawty. So we talked real short cause Jessie called so I had to hang up then the next day Ari calls me back and we get to talking an catching up"

I stopped him by putting one finger up. "Wait the day after Christmas? What was I doing?"

"Seeing your dad off remember?"

My mouth made the shape of an O before nodding for him to continue.

"iight back to my story. So we was talking then she hit me with the "I wanna see you" I was like damn I really shouldn't but the male part of me was like I haven't gotten any in a while"

I shook my head.

"So I told her to come over and at first we were just chilling like regular friends, you know like we do, then I was about to kiss her-"

"Woah we don't do that"

"Except that but I stopped myself like wtf am I doing? So we just chilled for the rest"

"At least you stopped yourself before you did it"

"Yeah but that don't mean shit now anyway"

"You didn't cheat so you can't blame yourself for the downfall of your relationship"

"I guess that's a good thing but Ima still be a hoe tho"

I shook my head one final time. "Get out" I pointed to the door.

"You kicking me out because Ima hoe?"

"No im kicking you out so you can go get ready. I want IHOP I'm starving"