Book of Shiteu the 2nd

How K-pop Changed Me

Y'all.

So like.

When I was 13, my weight got up to 200lbs / 91kg.  My blood pressure or sugar something was a concern to the doctors for a while.  Idk I was just really unhealthy n stuff.

When I was 14, I was 190lbs / 86kg. And at 15, I stayed in the 180's /82-85kg.  I mean, I was seriously overweight.  Dunno why bc I didn't eat that much..
or maybe I did.  Hmmmmm... Okay, yeah, I did eat a lot.  I loved food.  I especially loved sweets.

At the beginning of last year (2015), I got super sick and couldn't eat anything but plain mashed potatoes and plain rice for 5 months.  It was like, ridiculous.  My stomach was very unhappy with me at that time...

During that long period of time, I lost a lot of weight.  I got down to 172 lbs / 78kg (I remember bc I was kinda excited bc I've got weight issues).  It was pretty great.  Once I was better and started to eat again, I realized something crazy: my taste buds completely changed.

I went from loving everything chocolate to turning my nose up to it 99% of the time.  I really don't like sweets that much anymore.  I really, really don't.  I also didn't care for sweet snacks and treats like Little Debbie the stuff.  I stopped liking any kind of lunch meats (hotdogs, salami, bologna, etc.) and crackers... ew.

I also suddenly liked a lot of things I didn't like before.  I became a fan of Korean cabbage, and my need for meat increased.  I was suddenly able to stand super spicy stuff and I loved it.  Hot peppers also entered my list of foods I like.  And, surprisingly, I really liked rice and had to have it with every meal for a couple months.  The change in my diet was drastic.

Along with changes in what I eat, I also ate a lot less.  My serving sizes went from  My actual stomach freaking shrunk.  I'm still unable to eat regular portions of food (or at least it's uncomfortable to do so... mom makes me T-T)

^look at this wonder 10/10 example I drew to give y'all a visual of how much smaller my food potions got.  Ten outta ten fam.  LOL

This year (2016), thanks to K-pop, I've lost a ton of weight.  I got into dancing because of K-pop, which has me wanting to move my body all the time.  I like to just freestyle more than anything, but from time to time, I do try to learn the choreography to a K-pop song.  Which is hard.  And fun.

K-pop has also made me more interested in Asian food.  I liked it before, but now I know of more things that are out there.  I eat rice noodles now instead of whateverthefuck other noodles are made of.  Rice noodles have literally no nutritional value.  Like, there's nothing.  So I can eat 'em and not gain weight yay.

So I mean, stuff like that, getting up and moving and changing my diet, has contributed significantly to my current weight.  136.7lbs / 62kg.  I haven't weighed so little since 2009 or 2010.  Like, this is super big for me.  My confidence is much improved, too.  Hehe.

Because of K-pop, the passion I sorta had for music before I got depressed resurfaced.  It made a comeback, and this comeback hit hard.  I have a true passion for music that I express 24/7 irl. Rapping, singing, dancing, writing lyrics and composing, all of it.  Just the fact that I know that there is something I'm actually good at makes me feel good.  I'm happy with myself, with my music.  If I wasn't almost an adult, I'd dedicate my life to music and try to turn it into a career, but I'm too old now, so it's too late.  RIP.  But still, nothing can stop me from staying up til 4am to work on a song on one will ever hear.  ^~^

I like myself.  I love myself.  I believe in myself.  I'm confident in myself.  Of course, life has ups and downs and there's times were I don't really like myself all that much, but overall, I'm 98% happy with me.

And I thank K-pop for that.  If it weren't for South Korea's boy groups, I never would've slimmed down.  I never would've discovered something I'm truly passionate about.  I never would've uncovered talents that I didn't know I possessed.  I never would've gained confidence.

I truly believe that I owe it all to K-pop, a freakin' music genre (culture but whatever).  A freaking music genre transformed my life, and I think that's really... amazing.  It's crazy.  It's just music.  But I feel better about myself than I ever have before and I don't think I could've gotten to this point without it.

SHOUT OUT TO YouTube FOR SUGGESTING G-Dragon's 'Crayon.'  I NEVER WOULD'VE DISCOVERED THESE STUPID KOREAN BOYS IF IT WEREN'T FOR THAT MUSIC VIDEO SUGGESTION.