Begin Again

February 14th 2018

"What is she doing here Ace?" She said while raising her one eyebrow to me.

" Watch your mouth , Arva.." Ramdam ko ang paninigas ng katawan niya sa galit .

" Well care to explain this to me?" Ngayon naman ay nakapamewang na siya.

"Why do you care? It's just normal—"

"Ah, so she had you again? We both know—"

"Alam natin kung sino ang nagsisinungaling sa ating dalawa ! You..." He stood up ." You're the reason why I did that to my wife ! I trusted you but you messed up with our relationship! You jeopardize our marriage! Now our son's gone because of your craziness ! "

"Ace....I —"

"I don't want to hurt you because I respect you and our families friendship for over the years....but don't test my patience Arva or I swear if you do harm to my wife I will fucking forget all what we had! Even you! Get out here!"

I let out a deep sigh as I lean back . I feel exhausted just merely seeing that conniving bitch .

"Fen.." I opened my eyes and let myself drowned in his deep brown eyes. And then everything went back to normal .

Naalala ko tuloy noon, galit ang nararamdaman ko para sa taong nagmamay-ari ng kulay kahel na mga mata na ito. Almost nothing. The hatred inside of me covered all the love I had for him before. It's like even his death can never ease the pain I had for my lost angel. And now, in just one snap of a finger . My life turn upside down again. It gave me a reason to live , once more . To breath under water . To be lost in the middle of nowhere. To feel again.

All this emotions came back to me the moment I set my foot on that weeding day. I just hated it at first , but who knows everything that is gray before will turn colourful again?

I just can't believe this man can do to me. I just can't . He's too much. For me. But I'd like to accept his being too much if being happy again will be my ending . I'd risk it all . Heck with those people against us. As long as we both shall live, I will survive in this crucial world . With him. With my love. Even just a short time.

I blinked as I felt his warm breath against my skin. Hindi ko pansin na nakalapit na pala siya sa akin.

"What's in your mind baby?" I looked at him and saw the fear in his eyes.

"Having a second thought? " am I?

I smiled seductively and pull his necktie to make him more closer to me.

"What do you think?" I gently brushed my lips on to his lips while saying it.

"I love you.." I smiled widely after hearing those words from him. I can't breath.

Now, I can't think of any ways to describe how overwhelm my whole body whenever I hear him saying this to me. Something inside me grows that I can't decipher whenever I felt his sincerity by saying those words . Ano pa kaya kung ha-hawakan niya pa ako?

"Fen?" Marahil ay nararamdaman niya na wala na naman ako sa sarili. Well what do you expect? He's just so...

My eyelid became heavy when I felt his soft lips , giving me a weird feeling beyond compare . Always.

"Come back to me....please.."

"How do you do that?" I pushed him slowly and stand but then he pulled me to his body not giving me a chance to leave or go somewhere.

He snaked his two arms on to my waist which gives me a goosebumps all over my body. I felt him. Between his legs.

"Do what?" Kunot-noo akong napatingin sa kanya.