Why Me? (the gaga diaries)

Twenty-Six

Chapter 26-diary entry 9 (still)

Gaga led me to the bed, and sat down with me. "We haven't really talked about this, you've always tried to avoid the conversation, but I think it's time we have it." She said, squeezing my hand tightly. "Do you have an eating disorder?" She asked me, looking into my eyes. I quickly looked and away, and tried to pull my hand away. I did not want to have this conversation. "Come on, Amy, please. Talk to me!" Gaga said, tightening her grip on my hand. I turned back towards her slowly and took a deep breath.  I looked up at her, and she searched my eyes. "You can tell me anything. This is a safe place. I am here for you." She wrapped her robe around me; I hadn't even noticed that I was shaking. I looked away for a moment, then back up at her, "Yes." I replied weakly. Immediately my eyes went straight to my lap, and tears started to slowly roll down my cheek one by one. "Amy... I think you're beautiful." Gaga said simply, but it was just enough. I broke down in tears, and she pulled me close to her and held me tightly in her arms.