Why Me? (the gaga diaries)

Fourty-Three

Chapter 3-diary entry 15

On the fairly long drive back to the airport, Gaga had gotten sleepy and dozed off. I sat, listening to music for a while until I got bored, and decided to pull out my phone. I hit the home button and my screen came on, and all I could see were twitter notifications. I sat shocked as I tried to scroll through them. I unlocked my phone, and waited for my Twitter app to load, and once it did I saw that I had at least another three thousand new followers, and millions of retweets, messages, mentions. The first one I clicked on was from a girl named Jesse; she just said that I was beautiful and so lucky. I smiled to myself as I went to click on the next one, but it wasn't as nice. The next four I clicked on were full of hatred, using hashtags that made me cringe, like, my favorite, #AmyDoesntBelong. I set my phone down, and tried to take deep breaths. I went to Gaga's twitter and saw that she had tweeted another picture of us, from the Ellen show, saying; '@ladygaga:"So now you've met her. :) Be looking for her at artRAVE! @amygermanotta" I set my phone down, realizing what I'd just gotten myself into. How could I blame them? I'd be jealous too, if I were them, though I wouldn't say the things they were saying. My phone dinged again, and I saw one of the twitter friends I'd had before all of this had tweeted me, '@demis_skyscraper: wow guys, lay off of her! can't you just be happy for her? pretty sure gaga wouldn't like this.@amygermanotta ily" I smiled warmly, seeing someone on my side, and then I saw another nice one from someone named, @monsterbelieber:"come on guys, lay off. she's so sweet! Gaga wouldn't want us fighting. @amygermanotta"

I began to feel better, seeing that not everyone was against me, but before I could happy for too long, my phone dinged again, and I saw someone else say, "Amy doesn't belong here. Why does gaga like her? #GoAwayAmy" I closed my eyes as his post quickly earned retweets. I heard Gaga gasp lightly and looked at her with wide eyes, locking my phone as fast as possible. "Amy. What is going on?" She asked, furrowing her eyebrows, looking me straight in the eyes. "N-Nothing." "Don't lie to me." She said, pulling out her phone. I looked out the window, trying to hide the tears fighting to fall from my eyes. I heard Gaga gasp, and growl as she scrolled through twitter, and Instagram. "Amy.. I.." She started to say, turning me to face her, "Don't listen to them, ok? These people, they're not real fans. Ok? The real monsters, they're there somewhere. They still love you, they don't hate you. I promise you that." I nodded slowly, trying to keep from letting any tears slip. "But.. I don't blame them.. I mean.. I'm nothing special! I'm just another fan.. Yet I get to live with you, go on tour with you. I get that the true monsters aren't the ones sending the hate but.. I get why they're jealous too." Gaga shook her head, "Nobody has any reason to be sending you hate. And you know what, you are something special, you're special to me, and I am not going to tolerate this. For now, stay off of twitter please. I don't want you seeing this shit." She said, holding out her hand for my phone. After some hesitation I handed it to her and watched as she deleted the twitter app off of my phone, then handed it back to me. I watched as she punched at her own phone for a minute angrily. After a minute, she showed me her phone, and I read what she tweeted. "Calling all of my REAL monsters, we need you. Show my Amy some love please, let her know you don't hate her. I understand it's not you sending the hate." It had already gotten 2,000 retweets, and people were already responding with nice things. She smiled at me, and pulled me close to her; and I let myself relax. "I love you" I whispered.

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let me know what you think of this chapter! i'm not too sure about it.. here soon i may bring demi lovato in for a chapter or two.. if that's alright with you guys.. let me know what you think!(: i wanna know!

xoxo Jenna